Page 66 of Spiralling Skywards
Sasha didn’t look the least bit surprised by my revelation as she stepped aside, allowing me into the house and one step closer to Sarah. My heart did a little moonwalk and high-fived each of my ribs at this one small victory.
“I think perhaps you need to set things straight with Luke before you go begging Sarah’s forgiveness.”
“No, I need to see Sarah first. I hurt her tonight, and I need to put that right before I do anything else.”
“Go.” She pointed up the stairs. “No noisy make up sex, her brother and best friend are down here, remember?”
I took the stairs two at a time. Opening the door to Sarah’s bedroom quietly, I found her curled up under the doona on her side of the bed.
Herside of the bed.
She had a side of the bed. The side that I didn’t sleep on.
I couldn’t lose her. Yes, I’d lied by omission when I didn’t mention fucking Olivia before I left Australia, and Sarah being pissed off with me for a while was totally warranted, but I couldn’t lose her.
Climbing onto the bed beside her, I wanted to take off my shoes and jeans, get under the doona, and pull her warm little body up against mine -- But I wasn’t sure exactly how pissed off she was with me,andher brother was downstairs and I quite liked my bollocks where they were, so I didn’t.
I slid my arm around her, over the top of the doona and kissed her temple, she stirred. I kissed her again and breathed in the scent of her shampoo and citrusy perfume. I felt her still before she turned and blinked up at me.
“Why are you here?”
She attempted to sit up, but I kept her pinned down.
“You need to go.”
Her voice was raspy from sleep and possibly from crying. It pulled at my heart and made my dick twinge simultaneously.
“I’m not going anywhere. Not until you hear what I’ve gotta say.”
“Actions speak louder than words, Liam. I heard you loud and clear earlier tonight. Loud and fucking clear. So loud you almost deafened me.”
She swore, which meant she was really fucking pissed off.
“No. No, Sarah. No, you didn’t. You totally misheard me. You have no idea what I was trying to tell you, no fucking clue.”
She pushed me away from her and sat up, scooting away from me so her back was against the headboard.
“You let go of me. You let me go and you let me down. You chose her.” She almost spat the words at me.
“I’d never choose her, not over you, not ever.” I kept my voice low and as gentle as possible. I needed to stay calm and ignore the panic bubbling in my belly.
She stared at me. Blue eyes wide and shining with tears. Tears I’d caused.
“And why the fuck should I believe anything you say? You lied to me. Two years you said. It was over two years ago,that’swhat you told me.”
“It was, itisover.”
I closed my eyes and thought about how to word what I wanted to say next. If it came out wrong, it could be game over.
“I had not seen or heard from Olivia since I caught her fucking another man in our former home. In our actual fucking bed. Any and all contact has been made via our legal team. Then out of nowhere, she turned up at my office when I was working late.”
I watched as she used the heel of her hand to wipe away tears from her eyes. I hated seeing her cry, hated it. Hated even more that I was the cause of her tears.
“Sarah,” I said her name on a shaky exhale.
“Keep going. Let’s hear your bullshit excuse for ignoring me in front of yourwife.”
She emphasised the word wife. And I despised Olivia just a little more for turning up tonight, and I despised myself for giving her reason to. Yeah, I’d shot my load, but it wasn’t about that. I’d fucked Olivia out of spite. It was all about spite and revenge and hadn’t that just gone great for me. Karma was a bitch, and she had her teeth well and truly sunk into my arse cheek.
