Page 34 of Rage & Paradise
Estrella moves closer to me and my hands slide down from her sides to her hips.
“What do you want then, Oro?”
The tension between us is palpable. I can feel the electricity humming through her.
“Ya sabes.” I lean forward to speak in her ear. “También lo deseas, ¿no?” I continue, and I feel her breath hitch. My hands slide down even further and I grip both sides of her ass, pressing her tighter against me.
My cock is rock hard. All at once all the fantasies and aches I had for her when I was a teenager come rushing to the front of my mind. What I could do to her.
“Is that why you’ve been letting Digger get your attention? You want to make me crazy?”
“I don’t… I’m only doing what… oh God.” She whimpers as I continue to grind and rub against her. “We have to stop.” She moans and her fingers dig into my skin.
“Stop? Why? You don’t want this? You haven’t been waiting for this as long as I have?”
“It’s wrong.” She continues.
“Says who. I think it’s nothing but right.” I continue to grind against her and feel my body start to tense. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this close to making a fool of myself. That’s exactly what’s going to happen if I bust right here in my pants.
I don’t care. I want her. Estrella.
All that hate and anger I felt for her over the years has got nowhere to go but straight into the lust and desire I feel for her.
“Santi… I’m going to…” She moans, dropping her head against my chest, and it’s only then that I realize that even though I might be close, she’s already at the edge and I’ve done nothing but rub on her.
Is this another show for her? I mean we are out here in the crowd. People all around. Even though they might not be paying us any attention, this might be just another display for her.
“Starlight?” I try to pull back, but that one last movement is enough to push her over the edge. Or at least that’s what she wants me to believe. Her body bucks against my leg and I hold her tight to keep her from crumbling down to my feet.
I don’t want this. I don’t want to be sold a dream. She’s already my fucking dream.
When she calms, her face is flushed and she looks up at me. “That was amazing.” She whispers, and I can’t keep the wave of disgust that washes over me from showing on my features.
“No, it wasn’t.” I let her go and turn away, not wanting to look back in her eyes. I don’t want to be just another of the men she has to put a show on for.
Digger sees me walking away and shakes his head, probably thinking I didn’t have what it takes to seal the deal with her.
Little does he know, Estrella has already been trained to make any man who gets close to her think that they’ve sealed the deal before they’ve even started.
I refuse to be another one on that list.
SIXTEEN
Estrella
Blinking a few times, I feel the tears burning at the back of my eyelids.
What did I do?
How could I be so wrong?
I thought all the hate that Oro once felt for me would disappear once he found out the truth. It hasn’t.
I feel humiliated. Used.
He had me right here in the middle of the dance floor, ready to give him all of me, and he just left me. I don’t even know what I did to piss him off, but based on the look on his face I could tell that he was.
“Beautiful, you need me to go punch him in the face?” Digger questions when he gets closer to me. He grabs hold of my waist, and even though I know this is what I’m here for, I can’t help but feel dirty. Like I’m being passed off from one man to the next. I hate it.
