Page 2 of Double Kisses for the Omega
I looked at the clock and saw that I had another two hours before my appointment. I took a couple painkillers and hoped that it wouldn’t get much worse before my appointment.
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I took a seat on the examination table, experience telling me that I’d need to be up there anyway.
Doctor Erickson walked in, and gave me a forced smile. “Good afternoon Mister Thomas. How are you feeling today?”
I grimaced as another cramp overtook my middle. “I know you just gave me one last month, but I need another suppressant.”
His smile turned into a frown, and he sat to review my file. After a couple minutes he shook his head, then sighed. “I can give you one. But it’s clear that their effectiveness is dwindling. We’re going to have to look for a new course of treatment.”
“Another one?” I asked. “I’ve only been on these suppressants a couple years.”
He closed my file, placed it on the counter and leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “They’re not designed for long-term use. Heat suppressants are supposed to be a temporary measure.”
“So we need to find a new brand?” I asked.
He shook his head. “You’ve used most of them. Even if we switch, and a couple new options come onto the market, there’s no way we could suppress your heats for more than another couple years. The formulas are too similar.”
“What am I supposed to do?” I asked. “Isn’t it dangerous for me to go into heat?”
He closed his eyes and nodded. “For an omega with your condition, yes. But, to be honest, there are so few documented cases that we’re flying blind. Even the research is sparse. Most omegas die before they can reach your state. Just gathering enough of them for clinical trials of any treatment would be difficult.”
“So there’s nothing I can do?”
He made a face and scratched the back of his neck. “There is one… alternative… that has been successful with the omegas who have tried it, at least according to a few journal articles. But it’s not been widely tested and would be highly controversial to recommend. However, given your circumstances I will at least mention it as a possibility.”
“What is it?”
“According to the articles I’ve read, and keep in mind that these are anecdotes from patients and their doctors, and not a proper study, that the hormone imbalance has been greatly reduced when the omega carries a new pregnancy to term.”
My hand flew to my middle, memories of my previous pregnancy flooding me.
“I know it’s unconventional, and would be an extreme measure. But we need to start looking at all options, even if they are risky.”
“But pregnancy?” I asked. “Wouldn’t that be even more dangerous than a heat?”
He shook his head. “I don’t know. You’d have to be carefully monitored, but the articles seem to agree that after the first few weeks, most problems seem to even out.”
“How is a pregnancy supposed to fix my hormones though?”
He looked me in the eye. “This is just conjecture, but I think it’s because of when your bond was severed. You were still in the postpartum stage. Severing a bond is a wildly traumatic thing in itself, and causes massive heat fluctuations. Add in the remaining post-pregnancy hormones, and your body didn’t know how to establish a proper baseline. But your body still knows what it needs to do to make a healthy baby. Bringing hormones down again after is part of that process.”
I looked down at my flat stomach. Could I do it again? I loved being pregnant. But I’d lost both my mate and my baby.
Even if I wanted to be pregnant again, there was another problem. “I don’t have a partner though,” I sighed. “No alpha wants an omega who can’t be bonded.”
He let out a long breath. “I do agree that it is a hurdle, but attitudes have changed even in the past decade. There are plenty of couples who postpone or decide against bonding altogether.”
“Maybe in big cities…”
“Maybe here too, if you look.”
I ran my fingers through my beard. “I don’t know…”
“There is another option, but it would mean combining unconventional with controversial.”
“What’s that?”
