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“You got it smelling good in here, but you smell better.” Kastian buried his face in the crook of my neck, and my body began to heat up as he breathed in deeply.
“You haven’t been here for two minutes, and you’re already starting,” I half spoke half moaned as he began to suck on my neck.
“That’s what you do to me,” he mumbled. Kastian took my hand and placed it on his hard member. “Every time I see you this happens.”
My eyes closed as he sucked harder. I massaged his dick through his jeans and used my free hand to cradle the back of his head. Kastian dragged his mouth over to mine and tongued me down so deep and nasty that my pussy began to throb.
“Fuck,” I breathed as I fumbled with his jeans trying to get his dick out.
The way my body was yearning for him had me feeling like an addict about to get my next fix. Kastian spun me around so that my back was to him. He wrapped one arm tightly around my neck and we walked to my bedroom. Kastian fucked me so good that I came three times, bit my tongue once, and damn near cried real fuckin’ tears. That man was nothing short of amazing. I fully understood what he’d meant when he said I was dangerous because I had the exact same feelings about him.
The D he gave me had me fixing him a plate on wobbly legs. I almost asked him if he wanted me to feed him. That man that man that man. I felt so disconnected from being in love that I wasn’t sure what was normal and what wasn’t. Would I be able to tell the difference between love and lust? Love and deep like? Only time would tell, but I was down for the ride.
CHAPTER 16
KASTIAN
Ryder,Lox, and I were in the strip club. They both had asses in their faces, and I was scrolling through my phone reading emails. Hearing Ryder laugh caused me to look over at him to see what was funny.
“Nigga, are you reading emails? Yeah, you must be in love because there’s all this ass in here, and you’re reading emails?”
I frowned and looked at him like he was crazy before responding. “I don’t see any new faces in here which means I’ve seen all the ass in here plenty of times before. I don’t get geeked by ass the way you do.”
“Yeah whatever, nigga. I’m finally single and can turn all the way up, and you’re acting like if it’s not Persia you don’t want it.”
“Fuck outta here,” I waved his comment off.
I had been dealing with Persia for six months. I refused to admit it to him, but Ryder was right. In that time, I’d had sex with Xena three times, and I only did it to prove to myself that Persia didn’t have me as open as I knew she did. It was a waste of time because before I could finish busting a nut good, my thoughts always wandered to Persia and what she was doing. In the six months we’d been dealing with one another, she had only gone out on one date that I knew of, and she swore she wasn’thaving sex with anyone else. As long as she wasn’t fucking, I could deal with us not having a title. For the moment.
To appease Ryder’s ignorant ass, I put my phone away and focused on the women in the vicinity. When someone caught my eye, I stood up and made my way over to him. The closer I got, I could see the anger in David’s eyes. A smirk eased across my face. I knew that David wanted to say something fly, but knew better. I hadn’t alerted Ryder or Lox that I was going to approach David, but once they saw me talking to him, I knew they wouldn’t be too far behind. I also had a few shooters spread out in the club, but I had David. I didn’t need help for his ass. And I for sure was on whatever he was on.
“Yo,” I flicked the tip of my nose. “It’s been like what, six or seven months since Persia left you. You haven’t signed the divorce papers yet. What’s the hold up?”
David glowered at me. “You questioning me about a bitch I’m married to? I never took you for the pressed type. That hoe has my last name, and she’s going to have it until I say she’s not.” He seethed.
I chuckled lowly before punching him in the face. I punched David so hard that I knocked him into one of his homeboys. Maybe they had the good sense not to intervene, or maybe they were pussy. But none of the men he was with made a move, so I continued throwing punches until one of the bouncers placed a hand on my shoulder. Whoever it was, was smart enough not to try and manhandle my ass because my niggas would have sent it up in that muhfucka. I had really grown past the stage in my life where I acted off impulse and didn’t care about letting fists or bullets fly, but David irritated my entire being.
Chest heaving up and down, I let up off David who was dazed, and his nose was leaking. As if he was the one that started the fight, the security guard snatched him by the collar of his shirt and dragged him toward the exit. The moment I turnedaround, I almost ran into Ryder. That was how close he and Lox were.
“What that nigga do now?” Lox inquired.
“Nothing,” my shoulders hiked into a passive shrug. “I just asked him what the hold up with him signing the divorce papers was, and he got real disrespectful.”
Lox and Ryder both laughed, but I didn’t see anything funny.
“Broooo you are tweaking,” Ryder was laughing so hard he was holding his stomach. “How are you going to ask that man about his wife? But you’re not in love though. Yeah, right.”
“It’s okay my G,” Lox placed his hand on my shoulder just as the bouncer had. “It’s normal to fall in love at least once. You got this. It’ll be okay,” he stated in a reassuring tone making Ryder laugh harder.
“You niggas are childish. I’m out.” After giving them dap, I walked out to my car.
I wouldn’t be fucking anything after the club because Persia was on her period and on top of that, she had spent the weekend in Golden Waters for her cousin’s baby shower. I could have called Xena or even Doll because she was back in town. Persia and I had sex two days before she left, and she would be back in a day or so. Her period only lasted four days, so I could wait until she got back.
Honestly, I didn’t know what it felt like to be in love, but I knew I didn’t play about Persia. She never asked me for anything, but she could get whatever she wanted out of me. If she told me she didn’t want me to stick dick to a chick ever again in life, I’d agree with no hesitation because I didn’t want her sleeping with another man. I had to be willing to give what I wanted in return. Just the thought of her with someone else pissed me off. I had been very mindful to take shit slow and give her space, but it had already been six months. I wanted to knowhow long she needed. If she wasn’t in love with David like that, what was the hold up?
Once I got home and showered, I did something I had never done before. I texted Persia and told her goodnight. Ryder’s ass was right. Shorty had me gone.
Three days later, I rang Persia’s doorbell and waited for her to open the door. “Hi,” she sang with a grin on her face. She was dressed in brown leggings, and a matching brown fitted jacket that showed a tiny portion of her stomach. She had chocolate boho braids in her hair, but they were pulled up in a bun. I zeroed in on her thick thighs, and she noticed.
