Page 56 of One Foggy Christmas
I shake the thought away and just keep talking. “It’s been nice to have people around me I actually remember, but they keep saying I never went home to visit them the last few years. Why did I do that?”
“There’s been some friction between you guys.”
“Over what?”
“I don’t want to get in the middle of it, but I know for sure they aren’t the biggest fans of Nash.”
“I’m not either,” I grumble.
“Seriously?”
“He’s a complete stranger.”
“No, no, no. Nash is the absolute best. When it comes to incredible husbands, he’s the poster child.”
“So I take it you like him?”
“Oh, I’m so on the Nash train I’m driving it, or conducting, or whatever they say about trains. Headoresyou, and honestly, you adore him.”
“I don’t know.” I rub my temple where my head hurts. “It justfeelswrong. Stetson’s the guy I adore.” Autumn is the one person I can be honest with about this. “My heart still loves him. How does that happen if I’ve been with another man for the last three years?”
“Sheesh.” Autumn blows out a heavy breath. “I don’t know how that happens—complicated stuff. It’s like the wires between your head and your heart got crossed up.”
“You’re telling me.”
“Have you talked to Nash about it? Told him how you feel about Stetson?”
“No! I’ve barely talked to him at all.”
“Why not? He’s the sweetest.”
“Because it’s awkward. He’s like a random guy you see on the street.”
“And he’s seen you naked.”
I smile at Autumn’s joke. “If that isn’t awkward, I don’t know what is.”
“You once told me Nash Carter was the best thing that has ever happened to you, and I saw the proof of it. Don’t you owe it to yourself to discover why you believed that?”
I rest my head in my hand and close my eyes, avoiding her question.
“Will you talk to him? Please? For me.”
I suck in some air. “I’ll try.”
“What’s the worst thing that could happen? You end up falling in love with him all over again?”
Exactly.
“Let’s talk about something other than my screwed-up life, okay?” I pop my head up, infusing my voice with cheeriness. “Tell me all about Silas.”
“Are you sure?”
“One thousand percent. Give me all the details since I don’t know them anymore.”
I lie back against my pillows and listen as Autumn starts from the beginning of their relationship. It’s much easier to hear about her love life than mine.
For a few seconds, I feel normal again.
