Page 69 of For the First Time
“I wouldn’t say hurt.Beta bodies aren’t exactly meant for days and days of rough sex.”I didn’t mention that it was particularly harsh because Atlas was obsessed with claiming me.The whole pack is in a sort of agreement that the next heat should be easier since I’d already be claimed.“Also, it was our first one.My body should get better with it over time.”
“What about the alphas?”Hannah asked.
Koda nodded in agreement with the vague question.
“What about them?”I asked.“I’m with the whole pack.”
Everett hadn’t claimed me yet, but I was still a part of pack Wilder.The gold necklace I always wore was just as symbolic and meaningful as any claiming bite.I was a part of the pack.Both Atlas and Oaks had claimed me.It didn’t matter that I was missing a single bite, especially since I knew Everett loved me.He just hadn’t bitten me yet.That was fine.I was fine with him taking his time.
Hannah waved her hand, dismissing my words.“Yeah, I know that.But what about during a heat when they go into a rut.What stops them from knotting you?”
Koda gasped.“Is that safe?”
It was so strange to talk about sex like this with friends.It was even stranger to have friends to talk like this with.I’d worried that this case with Adam was going to push Hannah, and even Koda, away.That they wouldn’t want to be near my drama after going through their own.It was strange to be wrong.And I was glad for it.
“Everett actually manages to keep from falling into a rut,” I admitted.“Anytime Oaks tried to force his knot, he would just redirect him toward Atlas, which was fine since Atlas was always willing.”
Of course, that made me think of sex with Oaks the other day, after he claimed me.His knot beginning to swell.I wasn’t sure what it said about his instincts that he was constantly trying to shove his knot in me when lost to his rut.I knew, especially in that primitive mindset, that he knew I wasn’t an omega.That didn’t stop his need to breed me.They should be studyingthatin their biology books.
Alphas and betas didn’t go together like that but apparently being in love drove out even the biological common sense of fucking.
It made me wonder what other biological functions weren’t as permanently consistent.As it was, plenty of alpha extremists would assume that a beta would never be desired by an alpha or an omega.My pack proved that wrong.Koda’s pack did, too.
I wonder how many other people, other packs were like us.Breaking the norms.It wasn’t like we wore signs around our necks proclaiming our differences.We just existed.
“You’re biologically a beta?”Koda asked.“I register as a beta on all the tests, scent, bloodwork, whatever.But I can take a knot.”
Hannah nodded her head like she was agreeing with Koda’s words.Or maybe with the question.
“Uh, yeah, I am.No knots for me, though.Or, well, yeah...no.I mean, not easily.Not yet, anyway.”I was rambling.I couldn’t decide if I wanted to share or not.Was that too much information?I wasn’t sure.
“Care to elaborate?”Hannah asked.
“Well, you know.Bodies are flexible.”
“Flexible?”
“Stretchable?”
“Stretchable!”
I dropped my head back on the couch, pretending like they couldn’t see me if I couldn’t see them.
Hannah roared with laughter, and even Koda was giggling.
“You know what I mean,” I told them.
“We do,” Koda amicably agreed.
“Is that possible?”Hannah asked once she finally stopped laughing.
I shrugged a shoulder.“I’m not totally sure.Even if I could take a knot, it wouldn’t be something we could ever do constantly.Or even during a heat.It would have to be its own production.The main course, I guess.”
“That doesn’t sound bad.”
“It’s not.It wouldn’t be.It’ll just take some time.”
“Do you ever hate it?”Koda asked.Her words were softer now.More cautious.“Being a beta?”
