Page 60 of For the First Time
“You can’t knot me, Oaks.My body can’t take it.”My heart didn’t know whether to swell or break.That I’d lost him to his instincts was the ultimate compliment.He wanted to breed me.Claim me in the most primal way he knew how.But I couldn’t take it.A knot could literally tear my vagina, and I’d definitely need to see a doctor then.
“Oaks, please, no knot.”I shook my head and settled my hips, refusing to push back on him anymore, trying to pull him out of his head.Out of his instincts.“No knot.”
Our hips stopped.The sound of both our harsh breathings filling the space.I couldn’t keep the tears from my eyes, glad they were falling onto the sheets below me and disappearing.
“Knot?”he asked.
I wanted to be able to take it.Honestly, I did—
His hips started moving again.Slowly.It took actual effort for his cock to pull out, and when he pushed back in, it was nearly too much.But fuck if it didn’t feel good.He was pressed against every single nerve ending inside me.There was nowhere I could go for relief from the pressure, from the pleasure, and that just added to the sensation.
This was a mild, almost inferior form of knotting, but it was glorious to me.The feeling of being unable to go anywhere, to be trapped in the sensations, to know that when he came, I’d get every single drop.It made my head dizzy with yearning.I never wanted this moment to end.
“No knot,” I repeated.“No knot.No knot.Just come.”
He shuddered behind me.His hands tightened for a moment, like he was using my body to ground himself, to pull back his sanity into the male, not the alpha.His harsh breath puffed against my ear as he eased his grip.Gently, his hips started to rock.I wasn’t sure if he could even pull out of me at this point, he was filling me so completely.
His weight came down, pressing me into the mattress completely.Still, he managed to slide his hand under my body, his fingers finding my core.A simple touch on my swollen clit had me crying out against the sensation, all of my muscles flexing, making his length inside me impossibly tighter.
“That’s it, darlin,” Oaks said, finding his voice.“I need you to make this pretty pussy come for me, okay?Need you to squeeze around me so tight so I can come inside you.”
“Your knot?”
He kissed my cheek, the side of my mouth.“It won’t inflate anymore, I promise.I won’t hurt you.Just focus on your body.On the pleasure.Milk my cum from me.”
Oaks just barely rocked his hips, the slight movement as sensational as if he was fully thrusting inside me.His touch on the bundle of nerves between my thighs was sensitive, and still my hips bucked and jerked, trying to get away and get more simultaneously.
“I can feel you, darlin.Can feel how close you are to coming for me.One day, you’re going to come around my knot.”
His words were addictive.Like praise.Promises of the future.I wanted both.
“Ah-ah.I felt that, too.That doubt.You don’t think I can train this little pussy to take my knot?”
“Only—” I gasped at a sudden hard tilt of his hips.“Only omegas can take knots.I’m not—”
“Wrong.Only omegas can take knots naturally.Easily.But we can train and stretch this pussy until it can take us.It’ll never be quick.Won’t be often.Doesn’t make it impossible.”
Another sob left me.It was all too much.The pleasure.His words.I wanted all of it.Wanted to learn to take a knot.Wanted to break through that beta designation and be with my alphas, with my mates.I wanted whatever was possible between us.Not what everyone else said we should do.
“Come for me, darlin.Come around my cock.”
When my orgasm finally hit, it literally stole my breath.I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t scream as every inch of me, from my toes and fingertips to my nipples and my tongue endured the blinding white-hot heat of my climax.My muscles tightened to the point of nearly cramping, my blood rushing inside me so hard I was surprised it didn’t pour from me.
I was vaguely aware of Oaks’s groan as he started to come.My internal muscles squeezing around him like he needed for his body to finally find release.
By the time I caught my breath, my body was utterly exhausted.Despite already lying against the bed, I somehow slumped even further into the mattress.There was no tension in my body anymore.My muscles had melted, my eyelids fluttered shut, too heavy to lift.A single, deep, inhale seemed like too much work at that point.
I still felt Oaks coming inside me, the alpha’s cock releasing every single drop of cum he seemed to have had.To the point that even the slight swelling couldn’t block the liquid from coming out, sliding down my thighs and staining the bedsheets.
“All right, darlin?”Oaks asked.
My head was too heavy to nod, my tongue too heavy to move, and the rest of my body an impossible feat.I gave a single hum and even that felt like it took too much effort.
Oaks chuckled.“Good.Just take a rest then.I’ve got you.”
He started to move, just rolling onto his side, and taking me with him.I was asleep before he finally settled.
