Page 49 of Dirty Little Secret
“I wish I knew.” I looked at Rocco as he came back out with the salads.
Sitting back, Zandra smiled at Rocco. “Those look good, Rocco.”
“Thank you,” he said as he put them in front of us. He looked at me. “I’ll be back soon.”
With a nod, I let him know that I knew he was watching us. “Thanks.”
We ate in silence for a few minutes while I tried to think about how things could be done. Finally, I said, “I want to get to know you, Zandra.”
“Good.” She wiped her mouth with the white linen napkin. “I’d like to get to know you, too.”
While we both were on the same page, which was great, I still didn’t know exactly what page that was. “Okay. So, let me start by asking you about your living arrangement.”
“I’ve got a roommate. Taylor and I work together at the club. You’ve met her. She’s the blonde with rainbow spikes in her hair.” Her eyes clouded just a bit. “And for the record, I know she came onto you. And if she ever does again, I would really like it if you told me about it, as I’ve asked her not to do that anymore.”
I could see the jealous spark in her eyes, and it made me happier than it should. “I see. Is that because you see me as yours, Zandra?”
Shaking her head, that pink blush stained her cheeks once more. “I know you’re not mine, Kane. But you are the father of my child, and I don’t want any friend of mine messing with you.”
“I think I can agree with that.” I pushed my empty bowl to one side. “I don’t want any friend of mine messing with you either.”
Her eyes caught mine. “So, we agree again, then. Maybe all of this will work out just fine, Kane.”
I hope so.
I couldn’t stop looking at her lips. So plump, so juicy, and so completely kissable. “Yeah, it might.”
“I’m an open book, Kane. Ask me anything.” She moved the empty bowl away from her just as Rocco came back out, making her turn her attention to him. “That was the best salad I’ve ever had, Rocco. You’re a genius with food.”
“So I’ve been told.” He put the plates down then picked up the empty bowls. “I’ll be back to refill your glasses shortly. Enjoy.”
“I’m sure we will,” she said.
All I could do was gaze at her. I wasn’t a gazer. But with her, I was different.
As soon as Rocco was out of spying distance, I reached over, taking her hand as I looked into her eyes. “I’m going to need your help, Zandra.”
“With what?” she asked innocently.
“With not going too far, too fast.” Pulling her hand to my lips, I kissed the top of it. “You do something to me that no one else has ever done. I don’t know if it’s purely biological, or if it’s because we already have a child together. But if it weren’t for our son and the fact that I know we have to handle this whole situation carefully then I would take your hot ass to the bathroom, push you up against the wall, rip those panties off you, then thrust my cock into you so hard you’d feel me for days. I’m already hard as a rock for you.”
Instead of blushing, she licked her lips. “So why don’t you do just that then?”
My cock thumped, begging me to do it. She wanted it. I wanted it. Why not just go for it already?
Slowly but surely, sanity pushed its way into my sex-addled brain. “Because we’ve got to be Fox’s parents first, together, before we can become anything else.”
“Oh.” Her eyes went to the table. “Okay, then.” She pulled her hand away from mine. “Can you tell me how to do that? Because I only have my mother as a role model and I sure as hell don’t want to be like her.”
A thought came to me. “How about I introduce you to my aunt and uncle? Aunt Nancy is a great mother. She can teach you everything she knows.”
Stunned, she asked, “You want me to meet your family?”
“Well, of course I do. Zandra, you’re Fox’s mother. You’ll be in our lives from now on. If that’s what you want. My family comes along with us.” I sat back as I watched her think.
“My family wasn’t normal, Kane. And it’s been such a long time since I was even a part of them. I’ve been a loner.” She looked at me for answers that I didn’t have.
“You’ve always been that way, Zandra,” I reminded her. “But that doesn’t mean you’ll always have to be like that. Fox wants you as his mother.”
Her dark brows furrowed. “And what do you want me as, Kane?”
That answer didn’t come so easily to me. “I don’t know the exact answer to that just yet, and I don’t want to lie to you. I want you. I want your smoking hot body. I also want you to be Fox’s mom, and I won’t feel one hundred percent comfortable with that until I know the real you. I guess you can say that what I want is for you to let me in. And in turn, I’ll let you in. That’s not a thing I’ve ever done for any woman.”
I was ready to do that for her. But I couldn’t ignore the burning fear that I might not like what I would find if she let me in.
