Page 36 of Dirty News
With a nod, I left him and headed down to the lobby, hoping I wouldn’t run into anyone on the way. Freshly fucked, I didn’t know if I’d be able to lie if I sawanyone.
I waited outside for Duke before hailing a cab, slipping into the backseat before he did. He stretched his arm out on the back of the seat then wrapped it aroundme.
I rested my head on his shoulder. “This feelsnice.”
He kissed the top of my head. “To me too,baby.”
“You’re a bad influence on me, Duke. I’ve never been a rebel before. You’ve got me breaking all kinds of rules, you bad boy.” I sighed heavily as I wondered where this would lead. I’d probably end up without a job and be forced to go back to live with my parents in New Mexico if we kept thingsup.
“Bad boy? I’ve never considered myself to be one of those kinds of guys.” He played with a lock of my hair. “What makes you thinkthat?”
Pulling my head off his shoulder, I looked him in the eyes. “Really? You don’t think breaking a company rule during our first week on the job is rebellious? You don’t think screwing in a bathroom at said company is breaking therules?”
“When you put it that way, then I guess it does sound like I’m one of those guys. But I’ve only ever been this way with you. Then again, I’ve never been told I couldn’t be with whoever I wanted to be with, either.” He gently pushed me to lay my head back down on hisshoulder.
As I lay there, I thought about what he’d said. He’d never been told not to see someone before. Nor had I. Was it only this hot between us because we weren’t supposed to be doingit?
I’d thought it was just him. But maybe there were so many sparks because it was forbidden, not because of any over-the-topchemistry.
If that was the case, this could all just go away. Hell, either of us could get the urge to start something up with someone else at the station, looking for the same high we got with eachother.
Suddenly it all felt seedy and dirty. Nothing more than sex that was only thrilling because of the rule that forbade it. But even as I thought that, I felt his hand moving back and forth over my shoulder, rubbing it softly—sweetly,even.
I closed my eyes, feeling a calmness flow through me. If all this turned out to be was hot, forbidden sex, then I’d still take it. I hadn’t ever had anything like this and I’d take it for as long as he’d give it tome.
But I had to pray that someday it would either blossom or burn out completely. Either way, I knew I’d end up losing something—be it my job, or this man who managed to push all the right buttons on my body—I would losesomething.
“Do you think it feels this way just because we aren’t supposed to be doing it?” I had to ask him. It didn’t feel right keeping it all tomyself.
“I don’t know.” At least he was beinghonest.
“If I quit and went to work somewhere else, do you think we’d still see each other like this?” I had to know what he thought about that. Because the fact was that if he and I got into a real relationship, one of us would likely have to find another job, and I knew I’d have a better chance of finding one than hedid.
He pulled me up to look at him. “Lila, don’t even think about quitting WOLF.” His blue eyes searched mine, as if trying to read my thoughts to see if that’s really what I wasthinking.
I wasn’t, it was just a question. “I’m not thinking about that. I’m just wondering if you and I would still have this heat between us if we didn’t have this rule hanging over ourheads.”
“That shouldn’t even matter.” He furrowed his dark brow. “Don’t try to analyze this. Just live it. Just take it for what it is right now. Not what it might become, or devolve into. Just be here now, with me, likethis.”
Nodding my head, I laid it back down on his shoulder. He was right. I had to stop analyzing things so much. It was what it was, nothing more or less thanthat.
When we stopped at the bed and breakfast I now called home, we got out and headed up to my room. We heard voices coming from one of the living areas and saw a group of people in there watching television. A few of them waved at us as we passedby.
“So, you guys all hang out together?” Dukeasked.
“I haven’t hung out with anyone yet. But it does look like some of the long-term residents do hang out together. I think I’ll like it here, once I get settled in.” We went up the staircase and I led him to myroom.
It hardly compared to his spacious apartment, and it felt cramped with both of us inside the small room. “Cozy,” he said as he lookedaround.
“Yes, it is.” I picked out some clean clothes from the closet and laid them on the bed. “So, I guess I’ll gofirst.”
He laughed as he shook his head. “We’re goingtogether.”
I opened the door and showed him the claw-footed tub. “Think we can both fit intothat?”
He wiggled his brows. “If you get on top of me, wecan.”
“In the tub?” I asked. I’d never done anything like that before. I wasn’t sure how it wouldwork.
