Page 45 of Dirty Little Virgin
Unlocking the cage, I help her out and sit her on my lap. She buries her face in my neck and puts her arms around me. “Jade …”
She bursts into another fit of tears as she cries out, “I’m so sorry! Please forgive me! Please let things go back to how they were before! Please, Pierce. I’ll be good. I’ll never do anything against your will again. Not ever!”
Running my hands over her back to soothe her, I whisper, “Hush, baby. It’s me who’s sorry. I went too fast and too far. You had no idea you’d even hurt yourself. I could see that. And that’s brought something to my attention. You’re giving me too much. You’re willing to hurt yourself in more ways than one to give me all of you.”
She sniffles and pulls her head up weakly. “Don’t you want all of me?”
“Not to the point that nothing is left for you, baby. This is my fault. I haven’t explained things well enough to you. When we’re in the playroom, it’s not a time for you to venture out on your own. It’s the time to go by the plans we’ve made. And you have yet to become self-disciplined enough to handle that.”
“Will you give me another chance?” she asks me with drooping eyes and quivering lips.
“After we talk a lot more about what this really is. This isn’t about me taking you over in every aspect of your life. I want you to leave this time we’ve had together with a higher respect for yourself, not a dependence on me.” I pick her up and carry her to our bedroom. “I’m going to make us a bath where we can soak in the warm water and talk more about what I want you to get from this.”
I leave her sitting on the bed and feel the sadness that’s radiating off her. I don’t know what I’m going to do about the fact she’s falling in love with me.
As I start the water, I run my hand under the flow and adjust the temperature until it’s perfect. Then I get some chamomile bath beads to soothe Jade’s flesh and pour them in. My heart feels heavier than it has in a long time.
I have to let Jade go and I know it.
The flames that have begun to burn inside of me for her have to be doused. There’s no way I can hurt her the way I surely will if I keep things going the way they have been.
Sharing a bed has to stop. I’ll sleep on the sofa. The outings have to stop too. I need to make this more unappealing to her. I need to show her more of who I am in real life.
Going to the door, I say, “Come in here, Jade.”
I pull my pants off and climb into the tub as I wait for her. Her eyes are red-rimmed as she comes to the door. “Pierce, I …”
“Don’t, Jade. Just get into the water. We have a lot to talk about.”
She nods, slips in between my legs, and lays her body back on mine. It feels so damn good, it makes me want to hold her in my arms and tell her things I can never make happen.
Things like, I love her and will always keep her with me.I can’t do that!
“I can’t ever fix this, can I, Pierce?” She moves her hands over the sides of my thighs.
“There’s nothing to fix.” I pull the rubber band out of one of her braids and unfurl her dark hair, leaving it in waves. “You and I have lives that will never mingle any more than these next couple of months.” I undo the other braid and take in a deep breath of the clean smell of it. “And I’m afraid you’re going to have a hard time letting go if we keep things up the way we have been. I’m supposed to be showing you the world of BDSM. Instead, you’re falling in love with me.”
“When are you going to admit that you’re also falling in love with me?” Her words cut me deeper than I believe she meant them to.
I have to stop and get my head under control and watch what words come out of my mouth. Rubbing her shoulders, I say, “Maybe I am falling in love with you, Jade. The fact that you hurt yourself just to get me closer to you is a thing that’s hurting me far more than it should be.”
She turns and looks at me as her body moves against mine—a thing my cock is acutely aware of. “The only thing that needs to change is my self-discipline. I get it now. If I move or do a thing that we haven’t talked about and planned, then I can get hurt, and when I get hurt, it hurts you. That’s the last thing I want to do, Pierce. I don’t want you to be hurt. I didn’t know what I was doing, but now I do. I can get more control of myself. I can prove that to you.”
I run my arms around her, holding her close. “There is the little fact that I know you’d do anything for me and that’s bad.”
“I don’t see how it is. I think that’s what people in love do for one another. Anything the other needs them to do, right?” she asks, then kisses me with a light kiss. “And now I know you need me to listen to you and do only as planned. Isn’t that how things work? I did something wrong. You corrected me and I’ve learned from it.”
“How are you so sure you can handle all of this?” I ask her as I watch her eyes twinkle. “How will you handle things when this is over?”
She cocks her head to one side and asks, “How will you handle things when this is all over, Pierce?”
Looking into her innocent eyes, I have to smile at her naivety. “I can put you out of my mind, baby. I’ve done it more times with other women than you can imagine. Business takes me over most of the time. And when the need for you crops up, I’ll merely go to the club and find a random sub who wants to help me get my mind on something else, and poof, the thoughts about you will be gone again.”
Although I didn’t say that to make her cry, it does surprise me when she smiles instead. “You think it will be that easy, baby?” Her giggle makes her body shake and my dick thump. “I’m not going to be that easy to forget. You’ll see. Things will never be the same for you, Pierce Langford.”
I watch her as she moves her face closer to mine then kisses me as she moves to straddle me. She takes my hard on and moves her tight pussy over it. Her arms go around me as she moves her body up and down, stroking my cock.
I’m helpless as she turns me into a damn puppy who’ll follow her around and do whatever she wants me to. For now, that is. She’s dead wrong about once we leave this place.
