Page 1 of The Governess of My Heart
Chapter 1
Derbyshire July 1811
Elizabeth stood at the edge of the cliff, intrigued by the beauty before her. The sky looked brilliant in the rays of the morning sun, and the cliff overlooked the most breathtaking waterfall. She had been a frequent visitor to the spot for the past two months and felt the same awe and excitement every day when she stood there. And this morning, she stood closer to the cliff’s edge than ever before. Everything about the morning walk to the cliff reminded her of her past. The life she had left behind four months ago.
The memories of her walk to Oakham Mount every morning haunted her. Elizabeth could not fathom how her life had changed so drastically and felt like a coward for leaving her home, life, and family.
But it was never my home. I wish I had never become aware of the truth.
As painful as it was, she had made the choice to leave Longbourn. Sometimes, she wondered if she took the decision in haste, but she knew it was her only choice. The people she had loved and trusted had betrayed her. But she never imagined that her escape from home would bring her as far as Derbyshire.
Her current position as a governess was all that she had wanted as her employer was a kind lady, and Elizabeth did not have the same experiences as those she had in London. The children she was in charge of were adorable. They made her laugh, something she had missed doing for a long time.
She had established a routine of walking to the cliff to watch the sunrise. Her employer had been kind about giving her the freedom she needed. During the two months of being employed at Ashton Park, she almost thought she could forget her past.
But the previous day, a letter from her dearest friend arrived. It reminded her that she could never escape the memories. She stood there and somehow felt different. She was not the same person who walked there every day pretending to herself that everything had changed for the good.
I can never forget the past. I can never forget who I was. What is my future? Why do I have to live such a life of misery? A life in disguise, running away from the truth. Who is going to miss me if I am gone?
She was surprised by the recklessness of her mind.
No! Elizabeth. You are not a coward.
Her mind said but the next moment, it said the opposite.
You are already a coward. You ran away from your home. You could not face the truth. End this misery. End this life, which is a burden for you every day.
She could not bear the battle between her thoughts.
The cliff overlooked the falls, and she was never scared of heights. At that moment, she felt she was not afraid of anything in life except the mental agony that almost killed her daily.
Jump!
Her mind said.
She had no fear, did not ponder about her decision and was ready to end her misery. As she was about to step forward, she heard a loud voice behind her.
“Miss, you are dangerously close to the cliff. I would advise you to step back immediately.”
The voice cried. She turned around to look at who it was.
“I asked you to step back,” Darcy said in a commanding voice. He had returned from town the previous night and was on his morning ride. The particular mountain was his favorite, as the ride ended with a beautiful view of the falls.
He was unaccustomed to seeing anyone in such early hours and had always enjoyed solitude at the cliff. That day, he sawa figure standing there. He realized someone was standing precariously close to the cliff as he rode upward.
Good Lord! Who is that reckless woman?
He thought and rushed towards her.
He noticed her startle when she heard his voice. The moment he saw her face; he realized that she was very young. For a moment, he was captivated by her beautiful eyes, which appeared moist, and her face showed a state of confusion.
“Didn’t you hear me, madam? I asked you to step away from the cliff.”
Elizabeth was startled to see him, and it took her some time to understand what she had almost done. She was angry with herself beyond measure.
“Can you not hear me, madam?” Darcy asked with irritation.
“Of course, I can hear you. Anyone a mile away can hear your commands, I suppose. But I am not someone you can order around. I do not have to obey your commands, sir,” she cried with anger.
