Page 71 of Hate the Game
“What? Why are you staring at me like that?”
I put my dessert cup down next to me and sighed. “I wish we were both lesbians. Life would’ve been so much easier if we could just fall in love and be together. I’d use my trust to buy us a little house by a river somewhere and you could make art while I write books or something.”
Blaire burst out laughing and the wild, carefreeness of it made me join in. She wiped her eyes and fought to gain control but it wasn’t easy for either of us. “God, that would be nice, wouldn’t it? Would you claim my child as your own?”daughter and we’d teach her the dangers of footballers.”
“Fuck, yeah. I’d be Momma S or something. We could homeschool the kid and things would be perfect. There wouldn’t be a football in sight. Obviously, we’d have a
“Okay, I’ll try anything once.” She nodded at her stomach. “That’s what got me into this mess to start with.”
I grabbed my cheesecake again and blew out a breath. “Once I tell you what I’ve been up to you won’t want to try anything with me.”
She reached back in the fridge and pulled out a bottled cocktail. “I knew there was a reason I never threw these things away.”
I took it happily and took a deep breath. “You know I slept with Ryder the night before I flew back to Texas. Well. I slept with Cole last night. And then… I was returning a favor for Paul, if you follow me, and Cole walked in on it… In your dad’s office.”
Blaire’s face went through a series of emotions but she ended with excited shock. “Holy shit! Holy shit! What happened?”
I squeezed my eyes shut and saw the moment like it was happening right in front of my face all over again. Jax’s pleasure filled face shifting to horror as he came on my faceafterhis best friend walked in. Cole’s clenched fists. I hadn’t been able to look at his face. I didn’t need to to know that he was disgusted with me. I told all of it to Blaire and by the end I was hugging my knees to my chest and sniffing.
“What kind of person does that? What kind of person sleeps with two guys in one weekend and gives the third a blow job? Something is wrong with me. I thought my last boyfriend was the problem. I thought he was a piece of shit who made everyone think I was a filthy slut but what if they just knew it? Like, what if they could just see it on me?” I wiped my eyes and let out a bone-deep sigh. “People have always assumed things about me because of the way I look. And now I’m living up to their beliefs.”
Blaire moved to wrap her arms around me and held me tight, her belly trapped between us. “There’s nothing wrong with you. You have three men chasing you and you’re letting yourself live a little. No one asked for exclusivity, Vannah. If they’re upset at you over this, it’s their own fault. You’re not a filthy slut. You’re fucking wonderful and I won’t hear anything different. From you or anyone else.”
I leaned into her embrace. “I wish I could believe that.”
“You will. I’ll be sure of it.”
“I can’t face them, Blaire. They’re probably sharing notes right now and talking about how easy I am. I’m just so embarrassed.”
“You don’t have to face them. You’re staying here. We’ll take care of each other.”
***Jax***
After cleaning up Dad’s office, all while Cole sat back and watched, we messaged Ryder and the three of us met in the nosebleed seats of the stadium. With no one around to overhear us or interrupt we decided it was best to lay everything out on the table. It just wasn’t as easy to do as it was to suggest it. There was tension between Cole and I, a tension that Ryder immediately picked up on.
“This is fucking fun. Which one of you are going to spill first?” Since Savannah came along Ryder spoke up more and I wasn’t sure it was always a great thing.
Cole leaned forward and scowled at me. “I slept with her last night.”
My spine stiffened. A wave of jealousy hit me hard and I thought for a moment about tossing him down the stairs. “When?”
“After y’all fell asleep. In the showers.”
Ryder growled. “That’s our place, me and Savannah.”
“Sure as fuck felt likeourplace when I took her against the shower wall. And when she ripped the shower head off the wall.”Cole turned a hard glare from Ryder to me. “Now tell Ryder about what you did.”
“I didn’t do anything wrong. I don’t know why the fuck you’re angry at me.” I was going to punch him in the throat.
“You seem pretty angry yourself.” He stood up and paced away from us and then swung back around. “Seems like you’d be a little more relaxed after you just came all over Savannah’s face. In fucking front of me.”
Heat burned my cheeks. “I didn’t mean to do that. There was no stopping it. You could’ve been anyone.”
“Exactly! I could’ve been your dad. I could’ve been any of the other assholes on the team. Anyone could’ve just walked in and caught you with your dick down her throat.” He came closer, body vibrating with anger. “You’re fucking lucky it wasn’t anyone else. Or that no one else heard what I heard coming down the hall. You calling her a cocksucker at the top of your lungs!”
Ryder slowly stood up and turned on me. He gripped the front of my shirt and yanked me up. “You called her a cocksucker?”
I glared at Cole despite the danger in my face with Ryder. “I did not scream it. If you heard that why the fuck did you walk in? Did you want to catch us? Because of you she was humiliated and ran away.”
