Page 96 of Jase
“You’re sure you want to know?”
The question was like an anchor. It pulled down my words, drowning them before they had a chance to leave me. I took in the pain on his face. There was a silent plea buried within that gaze crying out for me to forget all of this. I couldn’t. I couldn’t run from whatever had Jase so afraid. And hewasafraid for me.
“Tell me.”
“Before I say anything, I want you to know that this changes absolutely nothing. It doesn’t change how I feel about you. It doesn’t change what I think of you. Kody, you mean everything to me.”
“You’re scaring me. Just tell me. What is it?”
He got quiet, glancing around the room.
“Maybe we should go sit on the sofa, or—”
“Jase.” My head shook, and I reached up, making him face me. My heart was pounding in my chest, but after everything I had been through, I wasn’t weak. Not anywhere close. If anything, I was stronger than ever. “What happened with Rush?”
“He thought he knew you. He couldn’t remember from where. We got into it, and…he suddenly remembered. It wasn’t in person, it was online that he’d seen you. On a site, Kody. I think it was from the night you were abducted. You told me you were in and out of it. That you didn’t remember where you were taken or really much of what happened. You said you might have been drugged.”
“That’s right.”
“I need you to think back for me. When you finally woke up inside, how was it? Where were you?”
“I was on the table in front of the cameras.”
“You’re sure? You don’t remember waking up before that?”
My brows drew in as I thought back. “I don’t think so. What exactly did he see?”
“Do you remember what you were wearing when you woke up?”
“Nothing. I was on the table.” Again I stopped. “He saw that?”
“Kody, David recorded a video of you before he put you in the dungeon.”
I grew quiet. For the life of me, I couldn’t unsee that look David had given me. The one that said he had a secret. The one that made my skin crawl. And then when he’d licked the blood off my breast. Just the thought made me shiver in repulsion. “David made a video of me in his SUV? Jase,just tell me. I don’t remember anything but flashes of the ride or the table.”
Jase pushed from the chair, clenching his hands as he began to pace. I eased to stand, following his angry movements.
“The video is on a very well-known porn site. You’re tied up. You look asleep. He undresses you, and—”
“He doesn’t rape me.”
Jase stopped, going silent. My head shook, not able to stop as I refused to allow the words to be true.
“He didn’t rape me, Jase, I would have known. I would have…he didn’t rape me.”
“Kody, I watched the video.”
My throat nearly closed as tears burned my eyes. Still, my head shook. “It’s not true. I would know. I…I would have known!”
“You were unconscious the entire time. It wasn’t a long video.”
That look. His secret…Had he thought I remembered? That I knew?
“Rush watched it? He knows?”
Jase’s shook his head repeatedly, almost more as a reflex, but finally nodded. “He thought it was just another video. He saw some of it. He actually thought he might have…dated you at some point. He couldn’t put it together at first.”
“Dated me?Oh, God.”
