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To feel the sharp bite Nix put into my inner thigh.
I yelped and there was a dark chuckle in the room.
Nix’s laugh. It was Nix’s.
Vinnyhadn’t left any marks. Not physically, anyway.
Then his fingers were pumping away in me and I was squirming as he tried to coax me into getting wet.
I was always so wet for Nix.
But I wasn’t now.
My breathing picked up again, a pant as his fingers felt so big in how tight I was.
Everything was grainy when I opened my eyes again.
The body lay behind me, running a rough hand down my sides, cradling my ass, fingers pumping, pumping.
The camera angle would have shown my whole body from start to finish. It was impossible to know how many people had seen me in that vulnerable state.
How many times had he watched it?
Did he touch me like this?
This was the same skin he had touched. The same body.
A violated body.
“Livie,” Nix cried, sitting up behind me.
His voice brought me back to the moment. The present. Where I was sobbing.
“Red—red flag,” I wept, pushing back the tears into my hair. “Red flag.”
My body was rocking with sobs, and Nix sat there on his knees, mouth open. He shuffled forward as I locked my knees to my chest. “What can I do?” he asked, voice broken. “Drink? Space? Some—”
But I pulled him to me and collapsed onto his chest, rambling about the video. He stroked my back, kissing my hair and giving comforting phrases of reassurance.
He could offer to do anything, but it wouldn’t solve this.
He couldn’t solve this.
Chapter 34
Nix wasn’t in bed.
The mattress was cold next to me.
I pulled my phone out from under my pillow and — half blinded by the screen — called his number.
“Bonjour, mon amour,” he greeted.Hello, my love.
“Where are you?” I asked, that irritable, half-frustrated groan from deep in my throat, signalling to him I hadn’t been up long. I cleared my throat.
“I’m seeing my Mum quickly,” he said. “I left you a note. Have you only just got up?”
“Only justwokenup,” I parroted, noticing the paper on his pillow and picking it up before lying back down on the bed with a thump.I love you. Will be back ASAP. “I haven’t slept so much in… well, maybe years.”
