Page 20 of Love and Defects 1
He was hard, almost threatening to burst through his zipper. Moving my hand, I gripped his hair and tugged his head to the side, trailing the end of my mask along his neck. His breath stuttered out of his lungs on a shaky exhale, and I faintly heard him groan my name as our hips continued moving together.
Suddenly, he turned to face me, his cheeks flushed. His dark eyes were bright as they locked on mine. “Take me upstairs,” he growled in my ear.
I sure as fuck did not have to be told twice. Grabbing his hand in mine, I linked our fingers together and tugged him off the dance floor, heading for the stairs near the front door. We raced up them, passing multiple other people making out, and I was pretty sure one of them had said fuck finding a room and decided to screw against the wall on the staircase.
I pushed open a door and breathed a sigh of relief when I saw it was empty. Quickly, I tugged Sterling inside before slamming the door shut behind us and flipping the lock so we wouldn’t be disturbed.
“I need these off,” Sterling growled, undoing the ties on my leather pants. As soon as they were loose, he tugged them down my legs. Once they stopped at my boots, Sterling crouched and began unbuckling my boots. I quickly stepped out of them and then yanked my pants off with my socks. My Ghostface mask was tossed across the room. I didn’t even care where it landed. I just needed my boyfriend on that bed.
“Get undressed,” I commanded as I sat on the edge of the mattress. I fumbled in the nightstand drawer, pulling out a bottle of lotion. It wasn’t lube, but it would do. I wasn’t new to anal sex, and I was bottoming tonight. I wanted Sterling to have the experience of sinking into a tight, warm ass.
And I wanted the experience of feeling him inside of me. I’d been imagining it since freshman year.
Sterling tugged his shirt over his head, and I laid back on the mattress, spreading my thighs. After squirting lotion onto my fingers, I reached between my cheeks and rubbed my finger around my hole. Sterling groaned, his eyes locked on my hand as he hurried to unsnap his jeans.
“I want to bottom,” I rasped as I sank a finger inside. I moaned, gritting my teeth. Fuck, that felt good. I hadn’t bottomed in a while, and I forgot how good it felt to have something inside of me like this.
Sterling tugged his jeans and boxers down his legs and shoved his sneakers off. Once he was completely naked, he prowled toward the bed. I inserted a second finger, and my back bowed off the bed.
“Take them out,” Sterling ordered. I quickly did as he said and watched as he lubed his fingers up with lotion before gently sinking them inside of me. I kept my eyes locked on his, my chest heaving as Sterling slowly scissored me open.
“You’re so gorgeous,” I murmured, my chest tightening. I was so fucking happy and grateful that I got to be his first. It meant the fucking world to me.
“You’re everything,” he rasped, sinking a third finger inside of me. I moaned his name, my eyes shutting for a moment in bliss before I forced them back open. His other hand was working his cock, slicking it up with a shit ton of lotion. He was long, thick, and hard, and I couldn’t wait to feel him inside of me.
I’d even gotten tested when we started dating just to make sure I was clean. Coach made us get tested every month, but I wanted to be extra cautious. Because Sterling deserved that courtesy.
“Fuck, that feels good,” I groaned as he worked his fingers in and out of me. “I need to feel you inside of me, baby. I’m ready. I swear, I’m ready.”
Sterling swallowed thickly, his Adam’s apple bobbing. He suddenly looked nervous, and I didn’t fucking like it. “If I go soft?—”
“I don’t care,” I told him fiercely. “I want you however much I can have you, Sterling. That’s all that’s fucking mattered to me. That’s all that’s ever mattered.”
He blew out a soft breath and nodded his head. I scooted back on the mattress, and he crawled onto the bed between my thighs, his shaft bobbing with each movement. Reaching out, I ran my fingers over him, and he moaned, his eyelids fluttering as he struggled to keep his gaze locked on mine.
“If I manage to stay hard,” he chuckled, “I may not last long.”
I shook my head. “Still don’t care, babe.”
He drew in a deep breath and batted my hand away, making me chuckle. He wrapped his hand around the base of his cock before pressing against me. I bore down, and he slipped inside. He moaned, his head falling forward as he slowly inched inside of me. He was thick, and it burned, but fuck it burned so good. I never wanted to feel anything else ever again.
“Oh, God, Graham,” he groaned as he sank further and further inside. “I can’t—you feel too fucking good.”
I leaned up on my elbows and brushed my mouth to his. His tongue flicked out and licked across the seam of my lips. I opened for him immediately, and he dove inside, tongue-fucking my mouth as he began to screw up inside of me. Falling back onto the mattress, I tugged him with me. My legs were hooked over his arms, and he bent me nearly in half as he began to screw up inside of me.
“Yes, yes, yes,” I chanted between hot, heavy kisses. “Sterling, that feels so good,” I moaned. “So fucking good. God,” I groaned.
“Not gonna last,” he panted.
I reached between us and began to stroke myself, whimpering each time he pegged my prostate. “Come inside of me,” I begged. “I need you to come inside of me, Sterling.”
He shouted my name, his hips stuttering. When I felt his warmth begin to fill me up, I cried out his name, my neck arching as my cum spurted between us. Sterling landed on top of me, his face tucked into my neck, and a moment later, I felt his hot tears running down my skin.
Quickly, I rolled us to the side and wrapped him up in my arms before throwing a leg over his hip. “I’m here,” I whispered, clutching him to me.
“I…” His voice trailed off, but I knew what he was trying to put into words.
After years of never being able to keep an erection, not only had he been able to stay hard long enough to have sex, but he also hadn’t had any kind of flashback, hadn’t heard his voice, and he’d actually been able to participate in the act of sex.
