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He strokes my chest and hums happily. "Just to stay here forever."
"We can stay here for as long as you like." I kiss the top of his head and smile. "See what happens when we talk?"
"Orgasms," he murmurs, all blissed-out. "Such good orgasms."
"Exactly."
Which is as clear a sign as any that I need to get over my shit and share my feelings about Buzz with the guy.
I'm just so out of practice at doing that. I put up walls the day I found out our parents had cheated, and I've been closed off ever since.
But Buzz is worth it.
And look what happens when we talk. We make each other feel so good. We come together and are closer than ever.
I'm going to have to bite the bullet and tell him how I feel.
And I will.
Soon.
46
Buzz
"I still can't get over what Court did," Zane tells me over lunch at the diner.
It's been over a month since the tattoo festival, and he brings it up every time we hang out. It's a bit much, but it makes me happy. For the first time since they met last year, I'm hopeful they might actually be friends some day.
Or at the very least, not tear each other's heads off.
"That's because he's a really nice guy," I say, taking a bite of my burger.
"I guess we did get off to a bad start," Zane concedes around a mouthful of his. "And middle."
I grin, wiping away a smidge of sauce from the corner of my mouth. "He can come across a little…"
"Cocky?"
An image of Court's work-of-art cock flashes in my mind, and my cheeks heat. Not only has he got a lot to work with, he knowsexactlywhat to do with it. He's been giving me the best sex of my life these past few weeks.
Painfully aware of the boner forming in my briefs, I snap my attention back to the present. "I was going to say aloof. But yeah, people have called him that. And worse."
"My dad was a doctor. They can be a lot."
It's one of the rare times Zane has mentioned his family. I asked him about them once, and he said he had to adopt a strict 'no contact' boundary with them. Hearing that stopped me from asking anything about them ever again.
"Do you think maybe that's partly why Court didn't make the best first impression on you? Confirmation bias and all that."
"Possibly. Plus I think I was jealous."
"Jealous? Of what?"
"Of what you guys have."
"We're best friends, Zane."
Best friends who also happen to be married and give each other daily orgasms, but he doesn't need to know that.
