Page 40 of Game of Destiny
“Because we are going to a wedding. One of the most romantic social events in the human world. If I show up with my boyfriend they will expect us to act all lovey dovey, kissing and cuddling and slow dancing and stuff,” I explained and looked at him. He made a face and I laughed. I loved Martin and I knew he loved me, but we were more like brother and sister and anything else felt wrong. Imagining kissing Martin felt the same as imagining kissing Elder. “Thought so.”
“Fine, I get it. But just so we are clear, I will make sure other men stay away from you.” I laughed and shook my head.
“And why is that? You just asked me if I planned to get laid.”
“That was to scope your intentions. Now I know I don’t have to talk sense into you and I can just do my thing,” he said, and sounded pleased.
“What is up with you?” I asked. He glanced over at me and sighed.
“Let’s talk about the elephant in the car.”
“Do we have one of those?” I asked.
“We do. You know I love you like a sister.”
“I do.”
“And Finlay is my best friend.” Oh shit, I thought. “I’m not blind, I can see whatever it is between the two of you. It’s frustrating to watch but it’s up to you to deal with. I’m just making sure that since he can’t be here, I will make sure I keep you safe.” My heart was pounding in my chest. I thought I had been hiding my feelings.
“Does everyone know?” I asked.
“No. Matilda does, because she sees everything. Maybe Medow does as well, but she hides it well if she does. Sam has no clue. The rest of the pack. I don’t think they see what I see. But everyone knows the two of you are close. Why do you act as if it’s a problem if the others know?”
“I don’t know. It’s between Finlay and me and we don't even talk about it. It’s just kind of just is.”
“And why is that?”
“Because if we talk about it we need to make a decision on how to move forward and I’m too big of a coward for that,” I said. He laughed, but when he noticed me not laughing, he glanced at me.
“You are serious?”
“I am.”
“But what is there to be scared of? And I have never seen you scared, why are you running away from this of all things?”
“Because. Because there are two outcomes. Either we decide to start something or we decide to leave it and pretend it doesn’t exist.”
“Right.”
“What if we give it a try and he finds his mate?” I asked.
“Yeah, I see that it’s a shitty option. But he is almost twenty-five and he hasn’t found her despite having been to several packs the last few years in his role as Alpha. The risk is low that he will find her. She could be dead or mated and then he never will,” Martin told me.
“But if he does?”
“I have seen how he looks at you, Amie. I don’t think that will change. My guess is he would choose you.”
“And then I will be the reason why someone gets rejected. I know how that feels, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. How could I do that to someone?”
“I see your point. But if the two of you mate his link to his true mate will be cut. Then there would be no rejection,” he pointed out.
“Just someone that will forever be looking for their mate that I stole. And could I do that to Finlay? His true mate is his perfect match. This whole thing is such a fucking mess. I hate it,” I sighed and shook my head.
“I’m sorry, Amie. I didn’t want to make you upset. I just see how the two of you act and to me it’s obvious the two of you belong together. I didn’t consider all the things around it. I get why you don’t talk about it.”
“It’s okay. I just don’t want things between me and Finlay to become strange or awkward. He is too important to me. So for now, we will continue this, whatever it is.”
“I get it. If you need to vent, you can always talk to me. I will keep your secrets safe,” he promised. I smiled.
