Page 67 of My Favorite Secret
Felix swims closer, fitting right behind me, murmuring against my cheek, “She just needs some alone time with you where you can break down her walls. Go ahead and kiss Tyler. Give in to what you want.”
I look between the two brothers, knowing if I want to stop this, I need to stop it now before we go any further. I need to tell them no and walk away.
Leaving is the right thing to do. It’s the respectable thing to do. In no reality would anyone in my life accept me as the girl that lets two brothers share her. My motherwanted me to wait for marriage. It’s what my father expects of me. He’s even trying to pair me up with his boss’s son.
But I’m tired of fighting this lifelong connection to Felix and Tyler. Nothing in my life feels good anymore except when I’m alone with these two men and forgetting everything else exists.
So I give in to the shame. Iindulgein the shame—the hypnotic, sinful feeling—and nothing has ever felt more right. I do as Felix instructs, clinging to Tyler with my entire body. Kissing and loving him.
This is it. There’s no turning back. What the three of us share is wrong, but it feels too good to stop.
With a groan, Tyler grabs my hips, grinding me against his cock.
“Good girl,” Felix whispers, his breath hot at my ear. “Tell Tyler you belong to us.”
“I do,” I murmur against Tyler’s lips. “I belong to you and Felix.”
“Tell him that the three of us are going to keep this a secret.”
“We’ll keep this a secret.”
“That’s my girl.” Felix kisses my neck, all while grabbing my hips and grinding his cock against my ass.
A surprised moan escapes me. I’m in heaven right now, with Tyler in front of me and Felix behind. Thank God my father is in bed. I’d be horrified if he walked in on this scene.
“Tonight, you choose whose bedroom you sneak into,” Felix says. “Whoever doesn’t get you tonight will enjoy you tomorrow.”
“What if I want both of you to take my first time?”
Felix trails his lips along my jawline as his hands massage my breasts. “My Little Sinner, that’s the one thingI can’t give you. I know how badly you want both of us fucking you at the same time. I thought I could do it. But I’ve realized it’s too far for me when Tyler is the other guy. I can share you with my brother, but not in that way.”
I nod, swallowing the disappointment that I’ll never live out the fantasy of having sex with them at the same time. But Felix is right. Theyarebrothers. I’ve always known my desires are wrong. Still, Felix never made me feel ashamed for wanting. He’s the one who’s nurtured these cravings. Now, he’s telling me whatheneeds. He’s showing me his boundaries, and instead of feeling rejected, I feel more connected to Felix, knowing he’s comfortable telling me his limits without shaming my desires.
“What if I want a repeat of what happened in the office?” I ask, leaning back in the water to kiss Felix. “Is that off limits?”
“That’s definitely not off limits.”
Without a word, Tyler unclips my bra, pulling the fabric free from my body.
“Take her panties off too,” Felix orders.
Tyler follows the instructions. This is the second time Tyler has undressed me without my permission. All feminism has left me because I love how he doesn’t ask. It’s so unexpected of him. He’s so gentle and caring throughout every other moment of his day-to-day life. Yet there’s this unhinged side to him reserved for me.
A sudden taste of bitterness fills me, thinking about Tyler being this way with the girls he’s slept with. Did they bring out these depraved urges in him too?
Right as Tyler leans in to kiss me, I pull back, my voice a low but sharp warning. “Ihatethat you slept with those other girls. Do you know how jealous it makes me to think of you acting this way with them?”
His eyes turn darker with a flare of possessiveness. He grips my waist, crushing me to his dick. “Fuck, you have me so hard when you talk like that. You’re the only girl who will ever have my attention.”
Felix strokes my nipples, sending waves of pleasure to my clit. “I saw Tyler firsthand with those girls. He’s never acted this way with anyone but you.”
“Both of you.” I try to sound fierce, but my eyes flutter shut at the skill of Felix’s hands. “You’re mine. No matter what. Tell me it will always be the three of us from here forward. Tell me nothing will ever ruin us again. I can’t lose either of you.”
The two of them are the most important thing to me, yet I’m filled with uncertainty about what the future holds for us. I’m navigating new territory with Tyler and have fears our bond will be ruined if we don’t work. Since Felix and I reconnected after my mother’s death, there’s always been a part of me that feels like he’s too good to be true.
Tyler brings my nipple into his mouth, teasing the peaked flesh with his tongue, making my toes curl with bliss. “Harper, baby, I have always wanted the three of us to be together. We’re going to work out.”
Hearing Tyler call mebabyfor the first time melts me.
