Page 56 of Fighting Conviction
Dev shook his head, but didn’t let go. His hips pushed into her until they were in an unfamiliar dance that felt as natural as breathing.
“I… can’t.” Dev’s forehead leaned against the back of her head, making it impossible to see what he was truly thinking. “You make me lose control. Last time… I didn’t even see the signs you were about to have a panic attack. Then I lost my shit knowing I did that to you—”
Ellie tried to turn around, but he kept his hold. “Dev, none of that is your fault. I feel safer with you than anyone.”
“What if I break you, angel?”
His last words whispered over her, like that was the last thing he wanted. But Ellie blushed in the mirror at the thought of what being broken by Dev would mean. It should’ve scared her. But it didn’t. She attempted to turn to talk to him face to face, but Dev tightened around her neck until it was harder to breathe. She swallowed against his hand and couldn’t help the moan that escaped her as desire throbbed at the emptiness inside her.
Dev tilted his head and she could almost see the spark of—was it excitement or satisfaction? She couldn’t tell, but she got the overwhelming sense she’d passed some sort of test. “You like that, Ellie?”
Instead of nodding, Ellie pushed his forearms with her hands, still bound by his biceps. She was on the verge of being in pain, but God, it felt good. His fingers dug into the sides of her throat until her chest was heaving and the world felt fuzzy again. Butshewas pushing him further. She could stop it at any time.
“You like when I do that? You like knowing that even when I’m in charge, you’re in control?” His teeth nipped her ear. “That I’mbeggingyou to be at my mercy?”
She nodded before moaning again at the thickness grinding between her butt cheeks.
“Say it, baby.”
“Say what?” She closed her eyes at his slow thrusts against her, but his fingers moved up to her jaw and he tapped her lower cheek until she opened them again to face the mirror.
“Tell me what you want. I’m warning you, after that, you’re mine. But I need to hear it from you first, angel. Now…” Hungry eyes caught hers in the reflection, keeping her captive just as much as his embrace. “What… doyou… want?”
Ellie licked her lips and as this focused man’s control slipped to follow the pink muscle, pride rippled through her. He shook his head imperceptibly and brought his attention back to her and growled.
“What do you want, angel?”
She bit her wet lip and took the plunge.
“You.”
Chapter Twenty-One
Dev’s gaze darkened right before he spun her around. He brought her chin up with his forefinger and captured her lips with his, setting her on fire when his tongue met hers. Melting in his hands, she moaned and buried her short nails into his pecs. He broke the kiss to scoop her up with his forearm under her butt and walked them to the other side of the gym.
Without putting her down, he locked the door and turned back around. She was about to ask him where they were going when a low rumble vibrated her breasts and his hand tugged her hair free from her ponytail.
“You know what I’ve fantasized about since the first day I trained you?” His intensity bored into her, sending shivers traveling underneath her already sensitive skin. She shook her head as much as the grip on the back of her nape would allow before kissing her way around his jaw and neck so he could still see.
“You… in the corner of this gym.”
Ellie turned her head to see where he was taking her. The mirrors on the wall met at the edge of the room, and in them, she saw Dev carrying her from two different directions. “Why here?”
“Because angel, with mirrors on each side, you’ll have no choice but to watch yourself come the first time I taste your sweet pussy.”
His words went straight to her clit and she dove in to kiss him again until the sudden sting of the cold mirror hit the bare skin of her back. Her feet touched the ground again, but her mind was floating away from reality. She braced herself for an onslaught of flashbacks until Dev bent down until the only thing in her vision were the hard lines of his determined face.
“Look at me, angel. It’s you and me. I see you going off in that space in your head to protect yourself. But you are safehere. In BlackStone, the safest place on earth.Youare in control. Say it.”
The words mumbled from her lips but Dev pinned her chin between his forefinger and thumb and forced her to focus back on him.
“Say it,youare in control.”
His head nodded up and down, and hers joined in as she swallowed and repeated after him.
“Again.Youare in control.” The words penetrated through the fog and she blinked back into her body, where arousal was consuming her from the inside out.
“Iam in control.”
