Idk what that means either. He seems like the type of guy who would say that to a girl he was dating, since he’s all about happily ever afters and stuff (seriously, he’s just like Grace in that way).
But I wonder why he hasn’t said it. I can’t ask him, cause that would make me… come off as, idk what… but I can’t ask him.
I’m not sure how ready I am to see them at school together all the time. They’ve only been together over the summer. Will she eat lunch with us? Or hang out with us? She doesn’t really hang with us now, but could that change???
All these questions and feelings are so dumb.
August 30
Dear Journal,
Tucker and Amber broke up.
I feel guilty for how happy that makes me. I’m truly a terrible person. I won’t be with him, but I don’t want him to be with anyone else…
September 14
Dear Journal,
Everything is back to normal (well, friendship normal) and I’m glad. Tucker was never really gone (I mean, he was when he was singing in different places around the state) but I feel like I got my best friend back.
October 31
Dear Journal,
I came to school dressed up as Catwoman (Grace’s idea for all of us to go as superheroes) and Tucker came as Batman. I am 110% sure that she did this on purpose.
Later, at the beach party Grace hosted, she said we looked like a cute couple with a cute couples costume.
Tucker’s face went so red. I’m sure mine did, too.
Neither of us said anything about her comment. We just kind of ignored it and then went down to the beach when her party was over to listen to the waves at midnight.
January 11
Dear Journal,
I officially have less than a year until my Paris audition. But… that’s not what I want to write about.
I’m not sure my heart will be able to take it. Whenever Tucker smiles at me, or even just glances in my direction, my heart skips a beat.
I will not let him be a distraction.
I will not let him be a distraction.
I will not let him be a distraction.
I do wonder what he kisses like, though.
No.
I will not let him be a distraction.
End of story.
April 3
Dear Journal,