Page 17 of Unsubmissive Omega
Darius moved up the bed and lay down on top of me, covering my nose with his chest. His scent was intoxicating. As I pulled in heaving breaths beneath him, I felt myself relax. It became harder for me to remember what I was worried about. My brain felt buzzed, almost high. I kinda knew what was happening – stupid alpha pheromones – but I didn’t have it in me to care that much anymore. My body went pliant beneath him. A gush of slick flowed out of me. I didn’t care. I was an omega and I was underneath my alpha, what was there to worry about?
“Sssh,” he murmured, his breath hot against my ear. “I’ll fit. You were made for me. Tell me if it hurts and I’ll slow down.”
I barely registered when Darius moved away and slipped three fingers inside my hole. It didn’t even hurt with the amount of slick gushing from me. I whimpered as he withdrew, almost chasing him down the bed. He held me against the mattresswith one hand. Then I felt a blunt pressure against my hole and the stretch as I accommodated the extra girth as he pushed in. My eyes flew open and I moaned as he pressed further in, my breaths coming short and sharp.
When he’d entered me fully, he stopped moving. I took a few deep breaths and felt my body relax and the pressure in my tunnel ease. As I relaxed, I felt how deep he was inside me, filling me up, completing me, his heavy balls pressed up hard against my ass. I dared a peek at him from under my lashes. His pupils were blown and he was looking at me with the softest expression on his face. It took my breath away.
“Okay?”
Strangely, I really was. I nodded and he began moving, thrusting into me, slowly at first, then faster, his powerful thrusts driving the air from my lungs, my body arching. His hand, this time slippery with slick, found its way to my cock again, and he stroked me in time with his thrusts. Higher and higher we flew, straining for that release, teetering on the edge, and then I was coming hard, all over his hand and my chest, and I felt him emptying himself inside me, and with a cry he crushed my body with his.
I screamed as I felt the dual sensation of his teeth penetrating my skin and his knot forming inside me. The world exploded in a shower of stars, as he breached the mating gland. I barely heard him utter the ritual words and I was out cold even before he started licking the wound closed.
I woke to the sensation of being crushed. I was momentarily confused, my brain still spinning with all the endorphins, and I had no idea where I was. I tried to pull away from the heavy weight pressing down on me, but a painful tug brought me backto reality and my attention to the fact we were joined together… down there.
In a startling rush of clarity, I got it. The knot. I’d forgotten about the knot. It wasn’t uncomfortable, if I didn’t move, and it felt incredibly intimate. I felt extremely vulnerable and wonderfully safe at the same time.
Darius had dozed off, snoring softly on the pillow beside me. My heart stuttered when I realized he had his arm wrapped across me, holding me tenderly to him, but I tamped down on that weakness. It didn’t mean anything. As good as the sex had been, we were still strangers. He was a young, hot, alpha. He’d probably slept with so many omegas that he didn’t pay attention to these things at all.
My eyes filled with tears. I’d achieved my objective, but at what cost? He was my first. How likely was it that I would end up with feelings, feelings he wouldn’t reciprocate?
I hadn’t expected this, and I didn’t want to admit it to myself, but I already wanted to mean something to this alpha.
Dammit, if I wasn’t careful I was going to get my heart broken, wasn’t I?
No way I was allowingthatto happen.
Chapter 09
DARIUS
I could tell the moment Xander realized I was awake, because his whole body went from soft and supple against my side, to a board of rigid muscles.
I tried to pull him closer, but he pushed me away, as far as was possible while we were still knotted.
I leaned up on my elbow.
“Are you all right?” I asked him.
The answer came back, sharp and not very convincing.
“Yes. If you consider being unable to move freely all right,” he snarked.
I flinched. I didn’t mind that he had a bit of sass, but I was quite enjoying being so intimately tied to my new mate, and it was disappointing to think he might not feel the same.
“I’m sorry if it’s uncomfortable. Try not to move and it will go down faster.” If he wasn't enjoying it, I didn't want to draw things out any longer than necessary. I tried to pull him into an embrace, but he resisted.
“No. Just… don’t touch me,” he turned his head away.
“Did I hurt you?” I asked, concerned. Honestly, I thought I’d been careful. I’d taken as much time and care as I could. But maybe I’d hurt him anyway.
“Not really,” he said. “I really don’t want to talk about it. It’s done now anyway.”
It should have been the most wonderful time for us both, lying together knotted after our mating. For me, the whole experience had been primal and deeply moving. I felt changed by it, and at peace. My wolf was sated and happy. I felt so close to my mate, but clearly Xander didn’t feel the same. I sighed. I’d been half-enamored even before I’d met him, it was unavoidable really, after having seen his photo. There’d been something about him that called to me, and I hadn’t been able to resist. Although he’d responded to me in the bedroom, obviously Xander hadn’t felt the same emotional connection. I hoped he’d come around.
We spent the next twenty minutes in uncomfortable silence. Eventually the pressure from my knot eased as the swellingsubsided and I pulled out gently. Xander rolledover without a word, pulling the covers up over himself. Hesitantly, I slung an arm over him, and although he tensed up, he didn't shrug me off. Maybe he slept a little, if the regular breathing that eventually filled the room was anything to go by, but I barely got a wink. I couldn't help wondering if this mating was doomed from the start.
When morning came, Xander got up and without a word or casting so much as a glance in my direction, went to our ensuite. A moment later I heard water hitting the tiles and the sound of Xander showering.
