Page 133 of On The Edge
“Yeah, I’m okay,” Mel replies when the door clicks shut behind me. “That song…Melodies On My Mind…” Her voice trails off quietly, curiously, like she doesn’t quite want to talk about what she’s feeling but she can’t help it.
“Yeah?” I nod, trying to encourage her to ask. I know where this is going.
“Is it about me?” she asks softly.
I swear, everyone in the room stops.
We knew this was coming. There’s no way Melody wouldn’t hear our songs and not immediately know they’re about her. She’s our muse. Our why. Our…everything.
Always has been.
The guys turn to look at us, and I nod, taking a deep breath before I answer.
“Do you really want to know?”
THIRTY-FIVE
‘Do I really want to know?’
Yes, I fucking want to know. Because if these songs are about some other fucking girl, I’m going to shoot myself.
Even the songs that sound like they hate the person they’re singing about…you can hear the pain. The longing. The ache.The need.
The chorus ofMelodies On My Mind…I’ve never heard such beautiful words. Wrapped in such angst.
“Melodies On My Mind…” I start, walking over to the couch and sitting down while they all come closer. “The chorus you played during warm-up. Beautiful. Haunting. Pointed.” Every word I say makes Reis shrink back a little, but I keep going. I have to get this out. I have to know.
I have to.
“Time proved who you were / Time proved what I needed/ Melodies swirling around my mind/ trying to take over/ Yeah, Melodies on my mind,” I repeat softly. “Is it about me? About us?”
“They’re all about you,” Markus admits quickly. No hesitation. My heart drops just a bit because theagonythey must have felt over me, over what happened, is breathtaking.
They took every bad thing and turned it into this empire for themselves.
“Reverb,” Reis says softly, “we all write songs. We all work on each other’s stuff. But there’s one common thread tying almost every single song together.You. You’re the muse that lights our creativity, our passion, our love, like no one and nothing has done for us before.”
“Every song, every beat, it all starts with you,” Adam continues, sitting on the coffee table in front of me. “Heartbreak, anger, love, wishes, fantasies, hope, betrayal. All of that emotion? It starts and endswith you.”
My breath catches as Markus joins in.
“Each song, each lyric; each echo, reverb, syncopation—they’re all about you and our deep, overwhelming, all-encompassing lovefor you.”
Kai sits next to me on the couch, throwing his arm behind me over the back.
“Do you understand now?” He asks this with a lazy fucking grin, like he knew exactly what kind of emotional bomb they were dropping on me. Kai’s other hand comes up to my chin, brushing my jaw softly with the back of his knuckles before his gaze drops to my lips. “We all love you,” he whispers.
And my control snaps.
I lean forward, taking Kai’s lips in a deep, heavy kiss that promises…everything. When I pull back to give him air, I grab the front of Adam’s shirt and pull him forward, kissing him just as deeply, showing him how fucking thankful I am that they chose me.
Reis sits to the other side of me, and when Adam pulls back for air, I swing around to Reis, showing him how much I choosethem. How much I want them in every capacity. How much I cherish them.
Markus stands, leaning over the coffee table and clearing his throat, like I’d somehow forgotten about him. I peck Reis one more time before showing my bassist some love. His tongue tastes like weed and the spearmint gum he was chewing, and I press into him as hard as I can to say I love him just as much. This could all get very heated, very quickly. Fuck, I want it to. I want to show them just how much I’m as obsessed with them as they are with me.
I want them to know in every damn fiber of their beings that I’m theirs.
“Oh dear god.” Those words ring out through the room like a fucking gun shot and my lady boner immediately deflates.Fucking Louis. “The doors aren’t locked, you guys,” he sneers. “Anyone could’ve come in here and your not-so-secret secret would be confirmed. Are you trying to fuck it all up?”
