Page 59 of Ony If It's You
I fought with myself internally on whether to tell him. Javyous was a little temperamental and I didn’t want to be the reason that he went off the handle and did anything irrational.
Sighing dejectedly, I replied, “Pharaoh changed my locks while I was gone.”
“What?” He frowned and looked at my house then back at me. “Why?”
“Because we were in Vegas with you and because he’s salty that we’re married.”
“You still fucking with him or something?”
“What? No.” I frowned. “Why would you even be asking me something like that?”
“I mean shit, he salty for something.”
“Yeah, because I don’t want his ass,” I spat. “Anyways let me go before you piss me off too.”
Before I could take a step, he was in my personal space, pressing me against the car.
“Chill yo’ ass out, I was just asking a legitimate question. How was I supposed to know you weren’t fucking with the nigga?”
“Because I slept with you twice, dummy.”
“So, what now?”
“So now we go to my grandmother’s until I can figure something out.” I shrugged.
She was going to be pissed and talking shit when I told her what Pharaoh had done.
“Come to my crib,” he suggested. “It’s down the street from here and I have enough space in there for the twins too.”
I shook my head. “We can’t impose on your space. Si and Jocey are really active and animated. They?—”
He cut me off. “They’re kids. Why would I give a fuck if they be running around and shit?”
“I don’t know, I’m just saying. They like to snack too, so it’s best that we?—”
“Aight, so we’ll drop your car and shit off to my spot then we’ll go to the grocery store to get them some snacks and shit,” he suggested, cutting me off again. “You’re making a lot excuses, Kehlani, baby.”
“I’m not, I’m just saying.”
“Saying what exactly?” He angled his head to the side and stared into my eyes.
“I don’t know,” I whispered. “Why do you want to help me? I’ve been mean to you.”
He shrugged. “You’re my wife. And sinceyou’remine, then that means they are too. I fuck with my little homies.”
My eyes danced around his face as I tried to gauge whether or not he was telling the truth. His didn’t waver one time, letting me know that he was being honest.
“Fine, but only tonight. I know you have your situation and you want?—”
He cut me off and cuffed my chin with his index finger, lifting my head so that I was looking at him. “You. I want you. I want us. I want it all. With you. Only if it’s you.”
Stunned.
That was the only way to describe what I was feeling after hearing his words. They were filled with certainty and conviction.
He wanted me.
My mouth was hanging open slightly as I stood there at a loss for words. Javyous and I had spent time together and had slept together, but I didn’t know he actually wanted to be with me.
