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Morgan smiled as she side-eyed Jan.“I’d like that.”
“Please tell me to piss off if you don’t fancy it, though.”
It would take a lot for Morgan to turn down an evening like this with Jan.Unless she was severely sick in bed, she was going to make herself available for this woman whenever she could.“I’ll always fancy it.”
“I will tell Gillian and Finn soon.I’m just trying to sort things out in my own head before I have to have that conversation.Gillian is going to be just as shocked as I was when I found out.”Jan suddenly linked an arm through Morgan’s.“Once they know, you won’t have to feel obligated to do any of this with me.”
Morgan tightened her arm and effectively drew Jan closer to the side of her.“Do I look like this is any trouble for me?”
“Well, no.”Jan smiled, and if Morgan’s eyes weren’t deceiving her, she would say she was blushing a little, too.
“Then I don’t know why you would think I feel obligated to do this with you.”
Jan sighed.“I guess I’m just surprised by how accommodating you’ve been.How much you’ve helped me through recent days.”
“It’s just who I am.Always there to help everyone other than myself.”It was true.She was forever doing something for someone or making sure everyone else was okay, but when it came to herself…Morgan generally pushed what she wanted to the back of her mind.
“Why is that?”
“Because I know how things usually go for me.”Morgan lifted a shoulder as they turned a corner and landed in front of the local park.She expected Jan would want to separate here since her hotel was nearby, but Jan just continued walking.Morgan wouldn’t stop her.It meant they got more time alone with one another.“Even the smallest part of me is jealous that you’ll have the chance to date soon.”
“Correct me if I’m wrong, but you must have so many women on offer.You own a bar, for the love of God.”
“Mm.All straight, it seems.Or…straight again once they’ve taken what they want from me.”Morgan glanced in Jan’s direction, admiring her profile against the streetlights.“I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve found myself attracted to a straight woman.”Morgan locked eyes with Jan as Jan turned her face to her.“Case in point.”
“I still don’t know why you’veeverfound me remotely attractive.”Jan laughed as she said that, almost as though it was self-deprecating.“But I am sorry you’ve had those experiences with women.”
Morgan could reel off all the reasons she’d found Jan attractive, but what was the point?She would rather befriend Jan than make it awkward between them.Because inevitably, italwaysended that way.Morgan didn’t want to risk that here.Jan was great company, regardless of the fact that Morgan was into her.“I’m sure I’ll live.”
“And love, at some point.”Jan winked as they took the gravelled path around the park.It was a mild night, only requiring something light in terms of layers, but Morgan would have been warm anyway.Jan was one of those women who was unassuming to some people but drop-dead gorgeous to most others.Morgan fell into the latter.Her temperature had risen the moment she’d laid eyes on Jan standing in the middle of the bar, holding the most gorgeous flowers.“Did you feel anything for Amanda at all?”
“Oh, yeah.I cared about her.Of course I did.”God, Morgan didn’t want Jan to think she just fucked her way around the city.It really wasn’t like that.“We both knew what it was.We agreed.I just wish she’d been forthcoming with me about her marriage.”
“I think that if it worked for you at the time, then you shouldn’t let it get to you.Like Phil, she’s the one in the wrong.Neither you nor I should feel guilty about anything.”
Morgan appreciated that.“You’re right.It’s easy to blame yourself, though.I’m sure you’ll agree.”
“I’ve been the master of blaming myself recently.But then I sat there in the hotel room, wondering why I should lay the blame on myself.I didn’t drop my pants for anyone other than my husband.”
Oh, I wish you’d drop your pants for me.Morgan batted that away and shook her head.“You did nothing wrong.”
“And neither did you.”Jan gave Morgan a knowing look.“If I find out that you’ve taken any blame whatsoever, you and I will fall out.”
“Nah.This one isallon Amanda.I know that.”
“So, what does the rest of the night have in store for you?”Jan was still linking Morgan’s arm with her own.Did she even realise she was doing it?Morgan wasn’t about to alert her to the fact.
“Not much.Home, maybe some TV, then bed.Same old, really.”
“I’d invite you over to my place, but I don’t have one of those at the moment.”Jan laughed.Morgan was glad she could find some humour in this situation.Then again, she guessed Jan would cry if she wasn’t laughing about it.“Maybe one day soon I’ll be able to return the favour.”
“And when that day comes, I’ll be the first on the doorstep with the best bottle of red I can find.”
Jan smiled.“It’s a date!”
Chapter7
Jan arched her back,moaning into the silence of the room as she came down from an intense orgasm.For the first time since she’d left Phil, Jan had found herself overcome with arousal.Unable to concentrate, she had taken to her bed some two hours ago, only now releasing the pent-up tension her body had been holding onto.
