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“Thankfully, it doesn’t.”Jan took Morgan’s hand as she stood right beside her.This woman wouldn’t make a scene in here, not on Jan’s watch.“But it doesn’t change the fact that people are watching, and you should know better than to cause a scene in here.It’s very childish.”
Amanda folded her arms across her chest.“Who exactly are you?”
“That’s not relevant to this conversation.”It didn’t matter who Jan was.It was time for Amanda to leave.“Get your belongings and go.”
“Are you going to let her speak to me like that?”Amanda side-eyed Morgan.
“Trust me, she’s being far more respectful than I would be.Jan is right.It’s time for you to leave.”Morgan stepped away and took Amanda’s handbag from the bar and her coat from her stool.She handed them over and smiled.“And please, don’t come back.”
With sheer disbelief etched on her face, Amanda stepped around Morgan and walked out the door.Jan’s shoulders relaxed immediately, but people were still looking over at them.She turned to Morgan and kissed her slowly.“Am I staying until you close, or am I going home to warm the place up for your arrival?”
Morgan grinned as she wrapped both arms around Jan’s waist.“I’m not letting you go.You’ll have to stay so I have something beautiful to look at.”
Jan brought a hand to Morgan’s cheek, reminding herself of Morgan’s soft skin.“I’ve spent two weeks thinking about you.You’ll have to forcefully remove me from your premises.”
“The only place I’ll be forcefully removing you from is that booth so I can take you upstairs and have my way with you.”
And just like that, Jan’s world lit up once again.All she felt was Morgan.All she saw was Morgan.And if she had her way, it would be for a very long time to come.
Chapter31
The disbelief Morganfelt as she sat here with Jan was quite startling.She hadn’t expected her to walk through the bar door tonight, and when she had, she hadn’t thought for one second that anything positive could come out of it.But…here she was, with her hand in Jan’s.Here she was…with the biggest grin spread on her mouth, knowing this woman was back in her life.How had this happened?Two weeks ago, when Jan asked for space, Morgan hadn’t seen a way forward.She’d wanted to reach out and tell Jan that she understood—that she accepted the position she was in—but Morgan had been unable to find the right words in those moments when she’d stared at her phone.
As Morgan scanned the bar, completely empty for the first time this week, she was glad no customers were sitting around.If they were, Morgan wouldn’t be able to spend this time with Jan.If they were, she certainly wouldn’t be aching to press herself to Jan and remind them both of everything they’d shared so far.
“You okay, babe?”Morgan turned her body inwards and lay a hand on Jan’s thigh.“I really want to take this upstairs so we can talk, but I usually have an influx around nine-thirty.”
Jan drew Morgan into a kiss.One that had her head spinning and her palms clammy.When she pulled back a little, Jan smiled.“I’m fine.I’m perfectly okay sitting here.”
“Can I get you another drink or something?”Morgan felt slightly nervous, but she couldn’t fathom why.Perhaps it was the unexpectedness of this night.Maybe she was subconsciously worried that this would fall apart again.It had been so sudden the last time around that it was possible.
“Hey,” Jan whispered against Morgan’s lips.“Relax.Take a minute.”
Morgan cast her gaze between them as she leaned against the booth.“I’m sorry.I…didn’t think I’d see you again.I don’t know what to do with myself.”
“That’s understandable.”Jan’s acknowledgment of the situation meant a lot to Morgan.She hadn’t walked in here and expected all to be forgotten.“I should have come here sooner.Or called, at least.”
“Have you been okay?”Morgan searched Jan’s eyes, enamoured by the blueness of them tonight.Had they always been so intense, or had Morgan just missed Jan so much that everything seemed heightened?“While you took some time away, were you okay?”
Jan regarded Morgan with a wry smile.“The first week, no.Then Gillian came to see me, so the second week was better.”Morgan was glad Gillian had been around for Jan.She hated the thought of her just existing at home.“She…said you’ve cut ties with Finn.”
Morgan hadn’t come face to face with Finn in a fortnight now.Part of her hoped that would continue, but the rest of her was just sad to have lost a friend.Though, was Finn really a friend if she could interfere the way she had when it came to Jan and Morgan?If that was considered acceptable, then Morgan didn’t want friends like that.Regardless of the fact Finn was trying to look out for them both in her own way, it had still resulted in Morgan losing Jan.“Yeah.The night you texted me.”
“Could it be repaired?”
Morgan pondered the idea for a moment.She didn’t know the answer to that because it wasn’t something she’d thought about until now.Did she miss seeing Finn around the place?Yes, of course she did.But Morganwouldnotrisk this again by having someone in her life who thought they could meddle without consequences.She didn’t care who it was; it just wasn’t an option moving forward.“Honestly, I don’t know.”
“If it makes any difference, I’d like to see it repaired.”Jan squeezed Morgan’s hand and smiled.“Life is too short to fall out with people.”
“She’s the reason you and I haven’t seen one another for two weeks.”Morgan frowned, a little perplexed that Jan would want her to forgive Finn for fucking this all up.“I don’t forgive very easily.Not when someone has taken something so special away from me.”
“But…I’m sitting here right now telling you I want to be with you, Morgan.Everything else is irrelevant at this point.”
“And Gillian?Is she going to come in here and tell me what she thinks of me, ofus, and I’m expected to let it go?”
“No.Gillian won’t do that.She’s supportive of my decision.”Jan cleared her throat.“I haven’t spoken to Finn yet.I think she may be avoiding me.”
“She’s lucky I didn’t smack her in the face when she came here the other week.You’d just texted me and she walked through the door.I was so fucking angry with her.”Morgan ran a hand down her face and sighed.“I don’t care who she is to you or anyone else—I’m not putting up with shit like that.I’m not losing you again so they can either get on board, or they can just deal with me being around.”
