Page 84 of Resistance Training
Asshole commentary: I did figure things out before it was revealed. The ending was somewhat unsatisfying. But so is life, apparently!
I loved the way it was written. Those Irish authors, they really have a way with words.
I genuinely think you’d like this one. I don’t think it would blow your mind or anything, I just think you’d enjoy reading it.
Or not.
I just don’t know who else to recommend it to.
Hope you’re well.
God, I hate writing that.
I do hope this email finds you well, though, and it’s kind of hilarious to me that I’m writing that at the end of the email.
From: [email protected]
Subject: Welp…
May 17, 2018, 10:37 p.m.
Okay. It’s been a year. I’m done.
I hope you’re alive.
I hope you’re happy.
I am so, so mad at you.
Still.
It’s a muted kind of anger, but it lingers.
I’m keeping you alive in my heart by being mad at you.
I wish we could be friends.
Or at least friendly.
Or at the very least I wish we could be two people who read the same books and email each other about them once in a while.
But I kind of hate you for hating me like this.
If you don’t even hate me and you’re just being a dick, then I hate you even more.
Regardless of what’s going on with you, the way you just blew me off…it’s not okay.
I don’t deserve that.
But if it’s what you need, then okay.
Fuck you, but okay.
But I also want to say this just once, because we never said it to each other: I loved you.
It makes me sad to be saying it in the past tense.
