I take her gloved hand in mine. “Come what may.”
Ten minutes later, we’re on the boat and Maddie’s pulling her gloves off, shoving them into her pockets and telling me to remove my gloves too as she leads me through the cabin to one of the doors to an upper deck. It’s colder than a dead elf’s balls outside, but I will follow her anywhere because I have a feeling something awesome is about to happen. She calmly surveys the deck before pulling me through the heavy metal door. There aren’t a lot of people inside on this level, and there’s no one else out on the deck, but there are windows everywhere. She leans back against a tall metal gate right beside the door, inhales deeply as she unzips her long coat, removes her boots, and pulls her leggings and panties off.
“Be quick,” she says, unzipping my coat.
“I think you’re great” is all I can say, before her mouth is on mine, and I’m getting my hands all up under that sweater. She’s unzipping my pants, and right before my lawyer brain shuts down, I remind myself that as long as none of our private parts are exposed, we can’t be charged for indecent exposure, so that leaves the “lewd act” misdemeanor, and I could argue that we’re in a secluded area, but yeah. I’ll be quick.
There’s no time for fondling. I will stand and deliver. She curls one leg up around me, tilting her hips so I can push inside her, and we both groan so loud becausefuck.She’s so warm and wet, and not one part of me is cold right now. I grab her by the ass, lift her up, and she wraps both legs around my waist. The metal gate provides a kind of industrial percussion beat as her back slams against it with every thrust.
She carries her own weight as much as she can, one hand clasped around my neck, one behind my head. Her head drops back, and I get one look at that face, and I can’t stop my mouth from releasing every dirty thing that I held back this morning. “Goddammit, Maddie. You are the sexiest fucking woman I have ever known. The first time I saw you I wanted to make you scream my name and come all over you.”
“Dec. Yes. Fuck.”
“You drive me crazy, you know?”
“Yes. I like it…”
I like that she likes it, and I can’t stop myself from ramming into her extra hard, just once. She curses and squeezes her legs around me tighter, and I can feel her starting to contract and release around me already and I’m delirious. “You own my cock, you know that?”
“Yes. I want it.”
“It’s yours.” I don’t even know how I can perform like this after eating, much less talk while fucking, butding dong merrily I’m highon adrenaline and lust for this woman. “What about your pussy?”
“Yours.”
“It’s mine.”
“Yes.”
“All mine.”
“Yes. So good. The way we fit.”
“No one will ever fuck you the way I do.”
“No one ever has. Dec. Oh my God.” Her climax comes hard and fast and beautiful, and I want to live in this crazy moment as much as I want to live in every other moment I’ve spent with her over the past few days. I don’t even want to think about what that means. Because I can’t.
All I have is this. The freezing cold air around us, the heat between us, and the frantic, terrible dilemma of wanting to come and wanting to make this last forever. She arches her back and then presses herself against me, changing angles. And those tiny movements are all it takes to put me over the edge as she takes me with her. Overboard. Into her. Out of my mind. Right up against the only woman on earth who could open me up completely or shut me down for good.
I know better than to call an orgasm love, but I’ve never had to fight the urge to say that word out loud to someone I’m having sex with before. It already feels wrong, not saying it to the woman who brought me back to life and kept me on track, even before I got to see her naked. Even on the deck of the Staten Island Ferry on Christmas.
Her whole body is wrapped around mine, arms around my neck, chin resting on my shoulder, legs around my waist but hidden under my coat. I can’t catch my breath, but I can see it. I can feel her heart beating against my chest, and I want her to tell me that it’s mine, but that’s not dirty talk. It’s the kind of straight talk that I can’t engage in, as her boss, as an attorney, or as a man who is on the cusp of becoming the man who actually deserves Maddie Cooper.
I let her down easy and bend down to retrieve her panties and leggings. But before she pulls them on, I slip a glove onto my right hand and wipe myself off from between her legs. She gasps when I do it. It’s not a sex gasp, it’s aholy shit I can’t believe you’re doing that for megasp, and it’s just as satisfying. There’s so much I want to do for her, and it scares me. I don’t want to be scared of it because she deserves better than a man who is afraid of his feelings for her. But I can do this for her now, so I will.
I wipe myself off too, remove the glove before folding it up and putting it back in my pocket. I’ll deal with that and so many other things later. We’re now fully dressed again, and we may look freshly fucked, but there’s no law against that.
I take her face in my hands and kiss her parted lips. The tip of her nose is cold, but her mouth is warm and her tongue is warm, and we should probably go back inside the cabin before I whip my dick out again. A soft, appreciative moan comes from deep in her throat as she kisses me. Sweet and sexy as hell. She is all these things and so much more, and I want them as much as I always did.
I just don’t know what to do with this totally unfamiliar and completely unexpected feeling in my chest and in the pit of my stomach.
I got a hot and surprisingly wonderful fake girlfriend for the holidays, but I lost my cocky shithead attitude somewhere back in Youngstown. I don’t miss being a cocky shithead—well, maybe a little—but there’s a river of doubt that’s a lot wider than the New York Harbor separating me from the place that I want to get to with Maddie.
She pulls away from me, slowly, and I look down at her. I should say something. Aren’t I the guy who always knows what to say? As always, she saves me from myself by staring over my shoulder and saying, “Look.”
I turn to see the Statue of Liberty. Glowing and majestic. A beacon of hope and opportunity for weary travelers. The goddess of liberty before me, a goddess of sex and executive administrative skills and potentially a domestic goddess that I would shack up with right behind me.
“Your place or mine?” she asks, wrapping her arms around my waist and pressing her cheek against my back.