Page 22 of Rogue If You Want To
Otto wasn’t in the cabin, and there was one place he gravitated to. I found him by the stream with his feet dangling in the water.
"Hey.” I sat beside him.
"Hey, yourself." He leaned on me, and my wolf got excited, thinking we were about to mate. “So what’s the plan?”
I filled him in with what I knew, leaving out the bit about him testifying before the bevy council. But he was aware of their laws and might pester me with questions to get to the truth.
“But for now, you have to get well, so your job is to eat healthy food and rest. And that’s an order.”
He smirked. “Oh, I love it when you give orders.”
Shit. My cock reached to his husky voice and come-hither eyes. He needed to recover, not roll around with my length in his hole.
“Maybe we could adjourn to the cabin and you could order me to remove my clothes.” He placed his lips against my ear. “And I could show you how slick I am.”
I stood and dragged him up behind me, in case he changed his mind. We raced over the grass and startled Larkin who was pushing Oak on the swing. The omega sniggered, and spots of pink appeared on his cheeks. I didn’t care that he knew what we were about to do.
“Are you sure?” I locked the door behind us.
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Was I sure? There wasn’t much in my life right now that I was sure of, to be honest. I wasn’t sure I belonged here with this fledgling pack. I wasn’t sure that my choices were keeping my mate safe. I wasn’t sure what tomorrow would bring.
But there was one thing I was absolutely sure of and that was that fate sent Torin to me. He was mine and I was his. There was a whole lot between us and the happy and safe dream life I wanted for us, but that didn't change the fact that there were no other people in this world that could make me whole the way he did. None.
Up until he asked that one little question, I’d been thinking fueled hormones, pheromones, need, lust, and desire. But now? With those three words,are you sure, I started to second-guess everything.
Cognitively I saw that doing this wasn’t fair to either of us. It would only put him in harm’s way and make a bond that might be severed in the very worst of ways. But that didn’t stop me from wanting to do this anyway. It wasn’t even a want. It was a need.
His hands came up and held my cheeks. His eyes met mine. “That wasn’t a trick question, Otto. Yes or no, and both are acceptable. But if you hesitate at all, then this isn’t for now.”
I sucked in a deep breath, letting it out slowly. He was being so patient with me. Not that I had expected anything less from him. He was Torin, my mate. Of course he put me ahead of himself, the way I tried to do the same for him.
“That isn’t it at all.” I was messing this up… big time. “I’m just trying to figure out if I should’ve ever stayed here… if I should’ve challenged my brother before any of this started … if I should’ve— There are just so many ifs.” I put my hands on his, holding him flush with my cheeks.
“But, Torin, Iamsure about you. I don’t know how best to handle it, how to keep you safe, not only physically but also to keep your heart safe. What if things don’t go well because of me being marked rogue? What if knowing me makes your life harder?”
He pressed his forehead against mine. “Oh, sweet, sweet Otto. Right now, we shouldn’t be worried about the world around us. There’s absolutely nothing we can do about any of it right this second.”
“I know. I know.” That didn’t make it easy to do.
I backed out of his touch, grabbed his hand midair, and brought him over to the bed where we both sat down.
“How about this? Can we take right now and have it in a bubble where nothing else matters, nothing else changes? It’s just you and me.” I offered the first solution that popped into my head, and once it was out, I was glad I did, because it felt right.
“Yeah. Yeah, I’d like that.” He rubbed his cheek against mine. “I really didn’t mean to make everything all serious when I asked you?—”
“You mean when you asked for consent?” I refused to let him feel bad for doing what was right. “That’s kind of a big deal. I’m glad you did. It means you see me as an equal, even though I’m an omega. It means I’ve made you feel like we’re partners in this. And that… I can’t tell you how happy that makes me.”
Even though there were a thousand reasons why I shouldn’t, I pulled him in for a kiss, holding him there as I worshiped his mouth, loving the little sounds that poured from him and wanting this second to never end.
Then, when we pulled back, both of us needing air to finish this conversation, I said words that cut so deep I never wanted to say them again. “We can’t mark each other.”
He gave a single nod. “I promise you, I won’t. Not now. Not until you want me to. But for now, omega, I need to take you. It’s just you, me, and our bubble, remember? Like the ones you blew outside, only magical. We’ll be floating in the clouds, where nothing can touch us.”
This time, when we kissed, we didn’t stop. We explored each other’s lips and mouths as we fumbled with each other’s clothes, pulling apart only the mere seconds it took to shed the cloth that separated us. We weren’t going hard and fast. We were taking our time and savoring every second. It was so freaking hot.
