Page 43 of Nobody Wants Me
During the storm, which lasted a couple of days, Victor and I ...got closer.We were not in love.I got the message loud and clear.He had no intention of ever loving me, and that was fine.More than fine.I could accept not being loved by him.But what I couldn’t accept was spending the rest of my life hating him.Hate was an awful emotion and a terrible feeling.So, against all the odds, we somehow spent the last couple of days in peace.It was unexpected.
The storm terrified me, and as a result, Victor wouldn’t allow me to sleep alone.I ended up sleeping with him and waking up in his arms.That was a new feeling.Also, I happened to feel his morning erection.He told me he could make sex good, but I did have doubts about that.Sex was not going to be good, I mean, like, ever.I didn’t believe him, but at least we were friends.
Now, Victor had gone back to “real life,” and I was still here, alive but alone with The Butcher, who was still wriggling her ass against the furniture, which made me smile.I had missed this woman.Even though I didn’t know anything about her, not even her name, I liked her.
“This is like making love to my ass,” The Butcher said.
“You’re partial to a comfy seat?”
“Life is way too damn short to settle for anything less.”She let out a sigh.“I have got to get me one of these.
Rather than stand awkwardly and watch her, I dropped into the seat beside her and sunk against the comfort of the sofa.
“Are you okay?”she asked.
“Yeah, I’m fine.I’m stranded on a deserted island, because a bunch of people I don’t know are trying to kill me.Good times.”
The Butcher patted my leg.“It will all be good.”
“How is everything back home?”I asked.
“Good,” The Butcher said.
“Just good?”
“Do you want me to go into detail about people I killed?”
“So, you have killed people?”
“Yep,” The Butcher said.
“How can you be so calm?”
“Easy, I’ve killed a lot of people, and if I didn’t kill them, they would eventually kill me.”She shrugged.“It’s the damage that happens in this line of work.”
“How did you learn?”I asked.
“I had a good teacher.”
“They taught you how to kill?”
I turned to look at The Butcher, and she glanced at me.I wish I could read her expression, but it was like she was completely blank.This woman was a master at everything.There was nothing I could do to even come close to competing.
“They taught me how to take care of myself.I’m who I am today, because of them,” she said.
“Do you think you could teach me?”I asked.
“To be like me?Hell, no.”
“No, to be able to take care of myself.If by some miracle, Ivan is able to do this, and I live, that means I’m going to be married to a Brigadier.I don’t even know what that means, but I think it means my life will be a giant pain in the ass.There are going to be people that want to kill me and Victor.I want to be able to have his back.”
The Butcher smirked.“I take it things are going well with you and Victor?”
“We’ve agreed to be friends.That’s it.”
“Sure.”
“We’re not going to love one another, Butcher,” I said.“No one ever loves me.”
