Page 39 of This Fate That Guides Us
Glancing back at the bed, I wish I had my camera so I could capture the image of Callisto and Nexus wrapped around each other, Nebula’s arm thrown over both men where he sleeps face down beside them. They’re so freaking cute!
Tiptoeing into their en suite I quickly relieve my bladder and find a new toothbrush to clean my mouth with. The huge packshower with multiple shower heads calls to me, but I push the thought away. I really need to find my phone and check in with Lex. Plus I don’t have any clean clothes to change into so the shower would be a waste of water.
In the main part of their room, I find Nebula awake and leaning against the counter with a cup of steaming coffee in his hand. Titan lounges beside him, having opted for an energy drink instead. Both men’s eyes snap to me when I walk in. Their attention is heady, my body’s awareness of their perusal making my core flood with slick. It’s also frightening.
I’ve been leered at by boys in school, but that wasn’t like this. No one has ever looked at me the way they do. They look at me like I’m the Northern Lights brightening up their darkened skies.
Shaking away the fear threatening to take hold of my heart, I offer them a small smile and soft ‘good morning’.
“Would you like a cup of coffee, little omega?” Nebula asks.
“No, thank you. I’m not a coffee drinker.”
“Energy drink?” Titan offers, but I shake my head.
“I’m good. I was actually looking for my phone. I fell asleep before I could tell Lex I was crashing here…” I trail off as I look around the small room.
“We called Bea and let them know you’d fallen asleep here, so no worries. Lex said he’d be over to get you this morning if you wanted to head back to your bus. You are also welcome to ride to Milwaukee with us if you want.”
My heart beats faster hearing Nebula’s words. They made sure my bodyguard and best friend knew I was safe without me having to ask them. I almost want to say fuck it and stay with them until I have to get ready for their next show, but I definitely need a shower and some space after waking up wrapped in their arms.
I’m afraid if I stay I’ll give in to this pull growing between us, and I don’t think I’m ready to lay my secrets bare before them yet. Not while my fear of our connection is still so strong.
“Next time?” I offer weakly. Thankfully he nods, his blue eyes disappointed, but understanding.
Lex shows up a half hour later, ushering me out of their suite and to the car so we can make it back to the bus in time to leave for our next stop. Bea was still asleep when we returned so I grabbed a quick shower, stashing my clothes from the night before in the pile of blankets on my bed. Inhaling deeply, my soul feels content with their scents filling my nest.
“Knock, knock!” Bea says as she swings my nest door open. I know the moment she catches hints of their scents in the air because her dark blue eyes narrow on me. “Well, I was here to see if you wanted food, but now I’m much more interested in hearing all the tea from your first date!”
Laughing, I push her out of the room and toward the living area. No way I’m letting her stay in my nest with the guy’s scents in there. Just having her in the doorway makes me agitated.
Ridley is dishing up whatever they made for lunch. I grin when I see stuffed French toast and maple syrup piled on the plate. It’s even blueberry–my favorite! “You’re the best!”
“Ugh, come on,” Bea grumbles as she pushes me away from Ridley. I hide my smirk behind my plate.
“So,” my bestie asks around a mouthful, “did you finally get some musician dick?”
Ridley splutters, choking on his coffee. Watching him pound his chest, I roll my eyes at Bea. I know she said it on purpose. Brat mode has been activated. These poor alphas are going to go crazy putting up with her today.
“No.”
She waits several seconds for more, but I just stare at her, one eyebrow raised, and eat my late breakfast. “That’s it? Whereare the details? Did you go over to their hotel to sit in a corner and stare at the wall?!”
“Nope,” I chuckle. “We played games and watched movies. Hung out. You know, the normal things friends do?”
“Oms, if those guys want to be your ‘friend’, I’ll eat an entire habanero. Raw. Those masked hotties are literally panting after you all the damn time. If they aren’t already head over heels in love with you, they’re on their way there.” Bea shrugs as if she isn’t reminding me of the thing I’m the most terrified of.
I haven’t told her the true extent of my fears regarding building a relationship with Primordial Covenant, so to her maybe this isn’t as shattering as it seems to me. Letting my walls down I show her the true depth of my fear. “I’m terrified, Bee.”
“Sometimes life can be really fucking scary, Oms, but you’ve already faced some of the most horrifying things this life has to offer. What’s the worst that could happen?” Opening my mouth, she cuts me off with a glare. “Aside from your birth father finding you and them and doing horrible things to you.”
Taking my birth family out of the equation, I search my heart and find the root of my fear. “They could find out who I am–who I was–and walk away,” I whisper.
“Oh, Oms.” Bea scoots across the couch to pull me into a tight hug. “No matter what happens you aren’t alone. Not ever again. We’re ride-or-die. You can’t escape me now.”
The boys’ concert in Milwaukee was as glorious as their other performances but relatively uneventful. We’d spent time in their tour bus again afterward, with Bea and our bodyguards in tow too, playing board games and enjoying the post-concert bliss.
Unfortunately, we ended up calling it an early night since we had to leave Milwaukee by six in the morning to make it toGrand Rapids in time for sound check and set up. We are all sharing a hotel block in Grand Rapids since the city has limited space for the tour buses to park overnight.
