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Those dirty words push me over the edge, and I quickly pull out, painting her skin in my release. I still, both of us breathing heavily before rolling onto my side. I grab the cloth I had out, using it to wipe between her legs and on her stomach she continues to come down.
Once I get her clean, I lay down next to her, and pull her into my chest. I wrap my arms around her as she snuggles into me, and I kiss the top of her head.
“You okay?” I ask.
“I’m perfect, did I do?—”
I don’t even let her finish the sentence.
“Hey,” I snap. “You were perfect, and youareperfect. It was amazing.”
“It was amazing for me too,” she says as she smiles and snuggles back in. I pull the blankets over us and get comfortable. I’ll just close my eyes for a moment before we head back.
Chapter31
Let You Love Me
Esme
We took a quick snooze after last night before we loaded up and headed back to the trailer. We spent the night engaging in cuddles and deep kisses and even had sex again. I’m sore but in the best ways.
We’re on the way back to the house. It’s early in the morning, but there are chores to do. I can’t help but admire his features as the sun breaks. He’s beautiful. I wish I could just stay. It’d be so easy. I knowthat he would take care of me. I know that we could be together, but I just can’t put him through what’s coming. He’s at enough risk. I have to go.
Our hands are entwined on the center console. His thumb is tracing small circles on the back of my hand, and it all feels so right.
* * *
We get home and immediately unpack the horses before continuing with chores. There are still things to do, even if last night was a ton of fun. I collect eggs before heading inside to drop them off while Asher checks cattle. Phillis is working in the kitchen, probably canning another batch of something homemade.
“Hey, Grandma,” I say as I make my way into the room.
“Hey, sugar.” She turns with a shocked expression, before clearing it and smiling at me. I guess that name kind of just slipped out. “I was thinking of red pepper pasta tonight. What do you think?”
I smile. I haven’t been here that long, but it feels like a lot has happened since I first stepped foot in the house. The one thing that hasn’t wavered is my grandma’s kindness.
“It sounds great. Thank you.”
“What time is your flight?”
Fuck. My flight. I knew it was coming but really didn’t see it sneaking up on me. I can feel my face fall, and I feel stupid emotional about it. It’s not fucking fair.
“You okay?”
I look up, and Phillis is still looking at me with her head tilted to the side. I quickly fix my face, plastering a fake smile on my face and hiding what I’m truly feeling.
“Yeah,” I cough out. “I just am gonna miss this place. It really has grown on me. It, uh, leaves at three tomorrow morning. Bright and early. Do you mind driving me?”
“Of course. You don’t want Ash to?”
“No, it’ll be easier this way. Thank you.”
I give her a half-smile before I walk back outside. I look around to see Asher coming in on Dom. He looks so content and in his element. I smile to myself and feel tears forming. My throat burns as I try to hold them back, but the dams break, and the tears start falling down my cheek.
I sniffle and wipe at the tears as my face screws up. I run to the garden before Asher can see and busy myself with the tomato and pepper plants. I’ll have to talk to him later. I can work on collecting veggies right now, and that’s what I’m going to do.
* * *
After a long day of keeping myself busy to distract myself from the inevitable, I make my way to the house to only be greeted by my favorite dinner. I’m so fucking excited. We all serve ourselves and sit around the table like one big happy family. We don’t get this often since my grandparents are gone so often now, and we’re typically on our own for dinner anyway.
