Page 148 of Through My Window
I press my lips together. That’s where I applied, but Ares has never been interested in going there. He always told me he wanted to study at one of the Ivies. Curiously, I pull out the letter inside, and my heart stops as I read it.
Thank you for your interest in our Business Management program for the semester. We will be reviewing your information and qualifications and will notify you of our decision.
What the fuck . . . ?
Business management? University of North Carolina?
At that moment Ares comes out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist, while drying his hair with another one.
“You can go in now, I . . .” He stops when he sees me with the paper in my hand.
“UNC? Business management?” I show him the paper.
“I was going to tell you . . .”
“You applied to UNC? For business management? What did I miss?”
“Raquel . . .”
“What happened to medicine? Princeton? Yale? Harvard? What happened?” I don’t give him time to answer. I don’t know why I’m so upset. Ares looks away.
“I have to be realistic, Raquel.”
“Realistic?” I ask in disbelief. He throws the towel aside and runs his hand over his face.
“Management or law, that’s what my family needs.” I can’t believe I’m hearing him say this.
“What about what you need?” I ask. He ignores my question.
“It’s the same college you applied to. Aren’t you glad to know we’ll be together?”
“Don’t try to make this about me,” I retort. “This is about you and what you want for your life.”
“This is what I want for my life. To be useful to my family, and to be by your side, that’s all I want.”
“No,” I shake my head. Ares raises an eyebrow.
“No?” he asks.
“You’re just taking the easy path. You’re giving up without even trying and taking refuge in the thought that at least we’ll be together.”
“At least?” he repeats. “I didn’t know being together was so unimportant to you.”
“Again, don’t try to make this about me or about us.”
“How can it not be about us? If I apply to those other colleges, do you know how far apart we’ll be? I’m going to have to move to another state, Raquel.”
I know . . .
I’ve thought about it so many times . . .
But I can’t be selfish . . .
“I know, but you’ll be studying what you want to study and following your dream. That’s enough for me.”
“Don’t give me that shit.” He moves closer to me. “You want us to split up?”
“I just want you to do what you want to do.”
