Page 54 of When a Scot Gives His Heart
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Marsaili awoke feeling as if she was lying in a cocoon of warmth. It was so very pleasant that it seemed near impossible to open her heavy eyelids. But she could sense the sunlight, and it beckoned her to wake completely. Her thoughts were muddled, but as they slowly started to clear, she remembered being put in a cage, the hunger, the sleeplessness, the pounding pain in her head that would not go away. Yet, the loudest memory, the one buzzing in her ears and burrowing into her heart to fill it with joy was that of Callum’s words. He’d said he would never leave her again and would die with her before leaving her. He’d said that he loved her.
She opened her eyes slowly and found herself staring at Callum’s bare chest, corded with muscle. He breathed evenly in her ear, still slumbering. She tried not to move. The task wasn’t too hard, given weakness seemed to permeate every part of her body. Her stomach growled, and her throat felt coated with gritty dirt, but despite the discomforts, a sense of peace and bliss filled her. She was in Callum’s arms! She swept her gaze up to his face. Even in sleep, he appeared as if concentrating on something. A frown line was prominent between his thick, dark brows. Was it her? Was it worry about his clan and what would happen with the Earl of Ainsworth should he break his promise to wed Coira? Was it worry over how the Gordons would retaliate since he had killed Robert? She shivered with the memory. She had no notion how Callum had managed to free them, but she knew he would tell her when he awoke, and she also knew she could not let go of him now.
God help her, she was too weak to release him from their love, from what they shared, but together, they would find a way. She would speak to Iain, beg his forgiveness, prove herself somehow to gain an alliance for Callum. Iain would soften.
And they would find their son! She could not think otherwise. The very tip of the idea made tears come to her eyes and slide down her cheeks. She wanted her son to have his father in his life, and she wanted Callum as hers, too. She had given herself to him completely, and no matter how inconvenient it was, their love could not be undone. Callum had not forsaken her. He’d thought her dead because her father had lied to his family.
“What’s this?” Callum’s finger brushed her cheek as the question rumbled from his chest. “Are ye in pain?”
She lifted her gaze to meet his brown one. “Nay. I feel fairly well, except weak, hungry, and well, worried. For ye, for me, for yer clan…for our child.”
His gaze darkened, and he squeezed her tight. “Lass,” he said, stroking her cheek and then cupping it in his large palm, “we will find a way. I love ye.”
“I love ye, too,” she replied, feeling better hearing him say that he too believed they would find a way. “Where are Broch and Maria?”
“They went to the stream earlier,” he said. “I imagine they are still there. I drifted to sleep, and when I awoke, ye were awake, and they were still gone. I believe they like each other.”
Marsaili’s eyes widened. “Ye’re certain?”
Callum nodded. “They’ve exchanged many a look. Mayhap they will stay at the stream for a spell,” he said with a wink.
She chuckled. “Ye are terrible.”
He grinned and brushed his thumb over her lips before pressing a gentle kiss to her mouth. “Nay. I just wish ye to myself for a moment. I-I’m nae one for flowery declarations, but—” He grabbed her hand and placed it over his heart, which thumped steady and hard under her fingertips. “From the first smile ye gave me, ye have had my devotion, and ye will have it until my last breath is taken. This I vow to ye.”
Fresh tears sprang to her eyes, but these were tears of happiness, of dreams she had lost and now once again seemed found. She took his hand, and as he had done seconds before, she placed his palm on her heart. Heat pooled low in her belly at the pressure of his hand on her. “Ye took my heart the first day I met ye, and though we were divided by lies, my heart did nae ever forget ye. I vow to ye now that, ye will forever be the only man who holds my heart and who I hold in mine.”
He parted her lips with a series of slow, feathery kisses that had a dreamlike quality to them and made her feel as if she were floating on a soft, wispy cloud. Under the blanket, his hand slid down her cheek, over her neck, then traced her collar bone and feathered to her breast where his fingers circled her bud in slow, languorous strokes. Her nipple firmed instantly under his touch, yanking a moan from her lips and a tormented groan from him. The sound of his need was a heady invitation to forget they were in the forest, that Broch and Maria were near, and almost that they were being hunted.
He must have had that same last thought because he broke their kiss as he brought his hands up to her face and cupped it. His dark gaze reflected the desire he kept under control as did the tic in his jaw. “I want ye, and if we were alone, I’d take ye, if ye wished it.”
“I’d wish it,” she replied, her voice a low, husky murmur. He released her face to pull her against the length of his body, and she felt his yearning for her, pressing low and hard against her belly. “What would ye wish to do to me?” she asked, teasing him as she had so long ago.
He grinned, and she knew then that he remembered her asking him that very same thing before she had consented to join with him at the time of the Gathering. “I would worship yer body until ye begged me to take ye, and then I would spread yer creamy thighs, plant myself in ye, and fill ye with my seed to make another bairn. But this bairn,” he said, placing a hand between them on her belly, “I would watch grow in ye day after day. I will ken the happiness of seeing my next son or daughter swell yer belly with life, and I will be there to protect ye, to dote on ye as yer body nurtures our child, and when the time comes for our bairn to enter the world, I will kneel beside ye and hold yer hand until the squalls of our bairn fill the world.”
A sob escaped her, and Callum swiped at the tears running down her face. “I thought,” she said through more sobs, “that ye said ye were nae good with flowery words.”
“I’m nae,” he replied with a shrug. “These words were in my heart, put there the moment I found out ye had our child, and I began to think upon all I had missed. I had to tell ye.”
She nodded and pressed her head to his chest. “I’m glad ye did. All the things ye said, I want, as well.” She looked up, worry suddenly overwhelming her. “Callum, did ye say those things about another bairn because ye fear we will nae find our son?”
A startled look crossed his face, and then he kissed her fiercely. “God, nay.” He kissed her forehead, her nose, her cheeks, and then her lips once more. “I will find him. I will rip apart Scotland to do so, if need be.” She sighed in relief. “When ye feel strong enough,” he said, “we will ride to Inverurie.”
“I feel strong enough now,” she replied, pushing away from him to sit up, but when a wave of nausea hit her, she clenched her teeth on a hiss.
He sat up beside her and slid his arm around her back, then tugged her against him. “Ye need to eat and quench yer thirst.”
She nodded. “But then,” she said, turning to meet his gaze, “we will ride.”
He studied her for a long moment, looking as if he might argue, but then he nodded. “I dunnae wish to tarry, either.” He squeezed her shoulder. “I saved rabbit for ye,” he said with a smile as he rose and fetched it along with some water. When he sat again, he offered her the rabbit one piece at time, cautioning her to eat slowly. When she was finished, he handed her the skin of water, and she drank her fill before lowering it.
She felt his gaze upon her, studying her. “What do ye wish to ask me?”
“Why did ye nae tell me we had a son when ye first had the opportunity?” he asked. “Why did ye nae come to me for aid in finding him?”
She glanced away, her stomach tightening with anxiety at all the terrible choices she had made because of fear. “When I learned of him, I feared telling ye because I believed ye dishonorable and that ye would take him from me if ye kenned of him. And then I learned Coira was barren, which increased my fear that ye would take our son to raise as yer heir. And when I saw ye were honorable, I still feared ye would take him as yer heir. I kenned ye needed to marry Coira for the alliance, and I ken well how men need heirs.”
