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Smoke.
I felt like a stalker sitting outside of Kaori’s crib, but I didn’t give a fuck. I couldn’t leave shit how it was. I went to Rough Draft to drink and clear my head for a second then by my crib to grab some weed, but I ended up right back outside her fucking house because she had me fucking jonesing.
Hearing her say she didn’t know if she wanted to bring a baby my baby, into this fucked with me bad. I loved both of my kids, even if one wasn’t here yet. It was crazy as fuck because if any other bitch told me she wanted to abort a kid I wouldn’t have given it a second thought, but Kaori, naw, that shit wasn’t going to happen. She was my one, the shit with us was meant to be. I knew that shit from day fucking one.
As I finished my blunt, I read another message from Bri’s slow ass. She had been blowing my shit up since I left her at Redmond’s earlier. She was on a rampage on social media too, lying, telling mothafuckas I chose a bitch over my baby, claiming I be coming through dropping dick from time to time. Just wild shit we both knew wasn’t true which was why I chose not torespond. She was only doing the shit because she wanted my attention and she knew I was having another baby now.
“This bitch is crazy,” I mumbled, reading the message where she said she was going to off herself if I didn’t answer the phone. I had the right mind to tell her ass to do me the fucking favor but I knew I couldn’t do my son like that. She was lucky as fuck that we had him, otherwise I would off her ass my fuckin’ self.
Once I was done with my blunt, I exited my car, making sure to grab the bookbag on the passenger seat. The worst that could happen when I got upstairs was her telling me to leave, but I was gon’ take my chances with the shit.I had to.
Tossing a nod toward buddy sitting at the desk, I kept my stride to the elevators. I was glad he knew my face because he would have stopped me otherwise. I still made a mental note to check that shit later because it was a safety hazard. I could be going to kill her ass or some shit and he just let me by. That had to wait because I didn’t want him doing his job properly right now.
Keying in the code I watched her put in earlier, I eased in her spot and instantly cursed myself for not knowing the code to her alarm system. I locked the door and hurried over to the keypad and immediately put in the first thing that came to mind.The approximate due date from her pregnancy test results.I released a sigh of relief when the beeping stopped and smiled to myself a little, knowing she rocked with our little human that heavy already.
Making my way back to her room, I pushed her door open and saw she was still knocked out with rain sounds playing loud as fuck and red lights on her in her room.That’s why she ain’t hear her fucking alarm.Shaking my head, I turned and headed back down to the bathroom in the hallway and showered before returning to her room, sliding in bed beside her, pulling her body into mine.
“I was wondering if you were going to come back,” she stated sleepily as she snuggled closer to me.
“Can’t stay away,” I admitted. “I don’t know why, I just can’t.”
“I’m sorry about what I said earlier.” Her eyes were open now and she looked up at me. “I don’t want you to think I don’t want our baby.”
“I know you do. You obsessed already, using the due date as your alarm code.”
Her eyes shut briefly as she chuckled. “Pregnancy brain is the worst because the first thing I should have been asking is how the fuck you got in here.”
“Facts, but I have my ways.” I chuckled, kissing the top of her head. “We gotta work on that security system because it was too easy and you gotta stop sleeping with that loud ass shit on. You couldn’t even hear ya shit going off.”
“I usually can.” She shook her head. “I’m just sleeping harder now.”
“Still…” I hugged her closer. “I’m sorry again about earlier.”
“Me too. I gave Jamal so many chances before and was ready to end us after something that wasn’t even your fault. You don’t deserve that and I won’t do that again.”
“Naw, you can definitely feel like you don’t want to put up with bullshit no more, I ain’t tripping on that. I don’t want you thinking I’m that nigga though or that I would play you like that.”
“I know you wouldn’t.” she kissed the part of my chest she was laying on. “Have you talked to Solo?”
“Naw,” I sighed, pissed that he even had to witness his mother acting like that today. She knew I didn’t like exposing him to that bullshit, but once again, Bri would do whatever to get a reaction out of me.
“She won’t let you?”
“Probably not.” I shook my head. “But I knew that was coming. I knew the moment she found out she was going to start acting stupid with my seed.”
“You don’t have any kind of custody agreement in place?” she asked.
“Hell naw. She’s never tried to keep him from me before, so I didn’t think I would need one.”
“Hopefully she’s just mad and it’ll blow over in a few days. I don’t want to be the reason you can’t see your son.”
“That ain’t on you, baby,” I let her know, kissing the top of her head. “Bri gon’ be aight and I’m gon’ see Solo. She can’t stay out of the streets so she gon’ give in within a few days.”
“I hope so.”
Seeing she was really bothered by the shit with Solo, I decided to lighten the mood and change the subject. I didn’t really want to think about that shit right now anyway.
