Page 96 of Her Destined Alpha
“Isn’t there fucking darkness in all of us?” he countered, taking a drag on his cigarette. “I’ve always considered myself a monster, and I believed it up until she came into my life. I know there is still darkness there,but she’s shown me there’s more to me than the monster within. I’m sure Rayhan’s the same for you. We can both agree that he’s definitely the calmer one of the two of you.” I frowned, but it was the truth, I couldn’t deny that.
“Guess we needed people as kind and selfless as them…” I murmured, silently apologising for the jealousy and anger I felt towards Kiara.
“Are you comparing me to yourself?” He narrowed his eyes. I simply glared back.
“You did first,” I stated.
“I’m nothing like you, spitfire.”
“And I’m nothing like you.” We both glared at each other, and a small smirk crossed his lips. I looked away in annoyance. We were more similar than either of us would admit.
“You’re not too bad for a stray cat.”
“And you’re not as scary as I thought,” I countered.
Yes, somehow, I didn’t mind the man before me. He was different inside than he showed. Even the fact that he followed me out… gave me his shirt… subtly defended Rayhan… yes, he cared for those he loved dearly.
“I was different and didn’t fucking fit in, but I found my place. It just took me some time to realise I deserved some happiness and shit. Guess you fucking need to learn that too.”
I smiled, his words hitting home. Yes, I needed to believe I was worthy of this. Of Rayhan. He frowned.
“What are you smirking at?”
“Nothing at all.”
I looked ahead as the mansion gates swung open, and my heart sank, seeing Rayhan standing there, one hand in his pocket, one hand running through his hair. Something told me he knew his uncle had gone after me, and it took him a lot to not run after me too. The worry in his eyes made my heart clench.
“I’m sorry,” I whispered, ashamed as I walked over to him. The King walked off without another word, leaving the two of us alone.
Rayhan didn’t reply, pulling me into his arms and hugging me tightly. I closed my eyes, slowly wrapping my arms around his waist. The heat from his body warmed my ice-cold body.
He said he loved me. He had proved that, yet there I was, doubting him and getting angry at him. I didn’t speak as he lifted me bridal style, looking at my feet that were rather red from the cold. A frown crossed his face as he walked inside into the warmth and up to our bedroom.
I looked at the broken bathroom door, feeling guilty as he placed me on the bed silently. Walking over to the door, he locked it before returning to me. That frown still remained, and I realised I had never seen Rayhan so quiet.
He crouched down before me, rubbing his hands over my feet, warming them. His hair curtained his face, but I really wanted to see his expression. My heart was thudding, and I wondered what was going through that mind of his.
“You don’t need to do that,” I said quietly.
I wasn’t used to that sort of treatment. He was an alpha, yet there he was, treating me like a queen, even after I had treated him like that. He didn’t reply. His warm hands enveloped my feet completely as he massaged them, bringing warmth back into them. The dim lighting of the room cast a warm glow around us.
“Tell me, Delsanra. What can I do for you to make you believe that you are the only one for me?” he asked quietly, his hands still massaging my feet. He didn’t look up, and I hated how I could sense the pain he was trying to hide. It hurt, knowing I subjected him to it, but I needed to know the truth too rather than find out in a horrible way.
I cupped his face, tilting it up, my stomach knotting with guilt. My heart thudded as I looked into his eyes, eyes that held such a storm of emotions that my heart clenched.
“I need to know these things before I learn them from someone else. How do you think it feels to be the only one in the room who wasn’t in on it?” I questioned quietly. He nodded, his hands stroking my cold thighs.
“You’re right. It won’t happen again. It didn’t even cross my mind when we were coming here. Kiara’s just a friend, a family member. I didn’t think.” I nodded as he cupped the back of my neck and pulled me close. “I’m sorry, Kitten.” His nose brushed mine, and my breath hitched.
I nodded, looking into his eyes. His scent made me lightheaded. His lips brushed mine softly, sending pleasant tingles through me. His lips caressed mine slowly, his grip tightening on me as he forced himself back.
“I’m sorry, too…” I sighed, looking down for a second, then back into his eyes. “Mark me.” His eyes widened in surprise. My words surprised even me... but I also knew it was what I wanted.
“That’s a big decision, Kitten,” he said, caressing my upper arms before he reached up and kissed my forehead.
“I know,” I admitted quietly. “And I want this.” His eyes flashed green, but it was gone as soon as it came. He took my hands, caressing my knuckles as he looked at me.
“Okay,” he agreed softly. “Tomorrow.”
