Page 126 of Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire
Yeah, well, I don’t do charming when it comes to Little Alpha Dickface,her clipped reply comes. I raise an eyebrow. Just then Marcel enters the room, shutting the door behind him.
I’ll deal with you later.
Can’t wait,comes her sarcastic reply.
“Everything okay, Leo?” He asks, concerned as he takes a seat on the sofa opposite.
“Yeah, there is just something I want to tell you,” I say, smoking my cigarette. I sit forward, resting my elbows on my knees.
“Go for it,” he replies, clearly unsure of what to make of it. Yeah, maybe I need luck or some shit…
Just tell him everything you experienced… how you had to go through so much, and although you dealt with it, it didn’t mean it was easy or fair on you. You suffered, Leo, and it is time to tell him that. No matter how hard it is on him.Her voice is soothing and calmer.
Yeah, I know the damn deal,I reply. I won’t admit it, butI am fucking grateful for her words. I kinda don’t know where to start…
“What’s with the stuff in the hallway?” I ask, trying to stall.
“Oh, well, that’s for tonight,” he smirks, running his fingers through his hair.
“What’s happening tonight?”
“Ah, well, it’s just a little dinner for Azura. We haven’t really welcomed her into this pack since she got here, and there is something else…” He doesn’t want to talk about it, and I frown but don’t bother questioning him.
“Whatever. What I want to talk about is the past.”
“The past?” He frowns, becoming serious.
“About the caves, the life of hell that we lived down there. You were one of the luckiest because you were entirely under her control… but what about the rest of us who had to live and deal with the nightmares of that past?”
“Leo…”
“I don’t want to fucking sound like I’m whining, but my hatred of everything stems from back then… we went through hell down there.”
“I know, Leo, and I wish I could have done more… you were somewhat immune to her compulsion, and -”
“Yeah, I was, so I witnessed it all. You just standing there blankly whilst she tortured Mom. You know, Dad, she was expecting when she died? Endora not only killed Mom but your unborn child. And I was the one who was forced to stand there and watch it all. Unable to fucking do anything.” None of this is coming out like it was meant to. I just sound like someone being petty-as-fuck about an unchangeable past. What purpose will telling him bring? He can’t change the past. It is done…
I look at him. He has turned ashen. He stares at me while his heart is thundering. I can see the toll my words are having on him, and he stands up, clearly shaken.
“Why… why didn’t you tell me she was pregnant? I mean even after…”
“Why should I have? It would have only hurt you, right?” I reply, now standing up and turning my back on him, no longer able to handle the look on his face.
“But you kept it inside… suffered all by yourself…”
“Yeah, because I could handle it. Do you know how it felt having to watch you do whatever Endora wanted? And what fucking hurts the most is when you were given your free will back, you allowed Rayhan to come here and once again hurt our people. I get it, they weren’t all good, but you just stood there just like you always did. Doing nothing,” I say, hating how my voice is fucking strained and my emotions are showing in it.
“Leo… I failed you, your mother, and…”
I close my eyes, hating that, despite his flaws, I am causing him pain. I get it… we all make mistakes… I get that Marcel’s hands were tied, too…
“No, but you failed my trust. You always say you won’t hand over the Alpha title because you fear what I’ll do if I am Alpha, but are you really a better Alpha than me? I mean, you were never able to protect this pack. Nor your mate… nor your children.” I hate hurting him. It fucking hurts me too, but I feel lighter getting it off my chest.
“No, Leo, I was just worried that you wanted to break away from Alejandro’s coun-”
“I’m already running this pack the way I want but, once again, you keep on putting others first!” I snap, turning and glaring at him, my eyes a magnetic steely blue, my aura filling the room.
“No, Leo, I want to give you the -”
