Page 46 of Starstruck
“Does that mean onlyonepussy from now on?”
I huff a laugh, shaking my head as Colt rolls his eyes. “Not always. But in my case, yes.”
“Dude. Who are you and what have you done with Baxter James?”
“Trust me. If you fucked her, you’d get it.”
Levi’s look of shock morphs into his signature stupid grin. “So…you’ll share, right?”
I whip my head up, anger twisting my features. “Fuck no.”
The guys and I have shared women in the past, but Lennon willnotbe one of them. That doesn’t seem like her style, and she’s definitely not the kind of girl you let go of once you have her.
She’s mine. At least for as long as we’re friends with benefits.
Though I haven’t even seen her since then. She refused to give me her number that night, and I’ve been too busy getting the album finalized to go down there and bother her. But our deadline to have the album ready for mixing is tomorrow, so as soon as we’re done here, I’ll be doing just that. If she won’t talk to me, showing up at her office will be my way of reminding her I exist.
Levi raises a brow. “Wow, this girl’s really got you whipped, eh?”
I roll my eyes. “Fuck that noise. I’m not whipped. I’m just helping out a great girl who’s going through a tough time and needs a hand.”
“A tough time because of you-know-who,” Colt chimes in. “I’m guessing whatever you said to convince her to include you didn’t include how you know Logan.”
I shake my head, grinding my teeth. “I have no plans to. That part of my life is in the past, and that’s where I want it to stay.”
“She should know.”
I glare at him, hoping my gaze conveys how serious I am when I demand, “Drop it.”
He shakes his head. “Just…why her?”
“Huh?”
“You’ve never shown an interest in even seeing a woman again, let alone agreeing to be friends with benefits with one. So, of all the women in the world, why Lennon?”
Brows pulled together, I ponder his question. The truth is, I have no idea what it is about Lennon that makes her so special—all I know is that sheis. Maybe part of me sees myself in her. I mean, she did lose her parents the same way I lost my mom, so it would only make sense. And I do think it has to do with the fact that I feel somewhat responsible for what happened—that just isn’t something I’m ready to admit yet.
So I shrug. “There’s just something about her.”
Levi huffs a laugh, giving me a high five as Colt levels me with a stare. He’s always been the most observant of the three of us, and considering he’s one of the few who know about what happened after my mom’s death, I’m sure he can see right through me.
Clenching his jaw, he shakes his head, but thankfully, he lets it go.
I know I’m going to have to tell Lennon the truth eventually, especially if we actually want to befriendsand not justbenefits. But it’s not something I can just casually bring up, and I still don’t know if it’s even something I should.
It’s not like it really matters—it’s in the past; telling her now will only cause more pain. And though I’m sure it’ll happen someday, hurting Lennon is the last thing I ever want to do.
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THINK OF YOU
BAXTER
“DO I WANNA KNOW?” BY ARCTIC MONKEYS
“Ugh, again?” Lennon whines as she walks into her office, finding me sprawled out on her couch. “What are you doing here, Baxter?”
I chuckle at her reaction. As promised, for the past week, I’ve been consistently showing up unannounced. We still haven’tbenefittedsince that day in her office, and I’m now certain she’s having second thoughts. I plan on doing whatever it takes to get her to change her mind back, and the more time she spends around me, the more tempted she’ll be.
