“Did you find the florals?” she asks, blushing as she steps closer, hugging the linen to her chest.
“I found them all.” I swing the pack off my back and let it rest on the floor at my feet. “I found you.”
“Of course you did.” She laughs again, an enchanting, sweet sound. “Why wouldn’t you have found me? This is our home. I’ve been here always, waiting for you.”
Any uneasiness I felt melts away. What she says is true. It is real. The strange distance before was a trick of the dream and nothing else. We were always meant to be.
“Come here.” I reach for her. “I need my mate in my arms.”
Idalis offers me a simper, her eyes darkening with her palpable want, and shifts the white cloth she holds into one arm so she can extend her other hand to me.
Her fingers are inches from mine when the color begins to fade. The edges of the dream close in until Idalis’s face is all I can see, and then she’s gone, too.
I’m back to staring at the darkness behind my eyelids.
This time, I don’t immediately sink back to sleep. I lie still on the bed for a few beats, listening. My heart pounds and my body thrums with life. My wolf, content and sated.
The cottage is quiet. No humming. No footsteps. Idalis’s scent is still in the air, but this is her home and I am covered in her blankets, so it may not be a sign that she’s here.
Cautiously, not trusting what I’ve dreamed, I stretch my legs out quietly as I open my eyes. I’ve been sleeping so long that they do not open quickly. I roll each wrist, finding them limber, slow to wake, too.
Then I push myself up. And that’s when I see her, my heart beats in a different rhythm.
Idalis has not gone anywhere. She’s moved to a seat by the fire, where the light kisses the curves of her face and she is fast asleep, some cards held in her hands atop a knitted blanket.
I watch her for a minute or two, my chest filled with a feeling I cannot name. Her position on the chair by the fire cannot be comfortable. Once that thought has passed through my mind, I cannot spend another second in Idalis’s bed.
Quietly so as to not disturb her, I take the cards out of her hands and place them on her worktable. Then I carry Idalis to her bed, place her carefully in the spot I just left, and tuck thecovers over her. Her body is soft and warm and my gods, her scent. As I carry her across the room I realize it’s the first time I’ve touched her, although still not skin to skin. So close to heaven. That’s what it’s like being so close to her.
Idalis stirs, letting out a soft breath, and turns over. She does not wake.
After so much time in bed, I need to move. I go silently to the door and let myself out into the night.
I trulydidsleep all day. The moon is high in the sky and nearly full. My wolf stirs at the sight of it, coming fully awake himself.
Feeling the need to shift, I leave her side quickly. Out into the darkness, I close the door behind me before shedding my clothes.
It’s a relief to shift into my wolf form. To stretch my limbs and allow him to take over. I take a few swift steps, then trot away from the cottage. The world smells different when I am a wolf. I catch the trails of many small woodland creatures who passed through the taller grasses over the last day. Not a mortal soul can be scented. I can smell the differences in patches of soil, and whether it was slightly higher or slightly lower when the rain soaked in. I can smell a den of rabbits somewhere in the forest.
My wolf bounds into a run, streaking through the night air, his muscles working in perfect coordination, his heart speeding up with the thrill of this new environment, made fresh by the rain. My mate. My mate. My mate. It’s all I can think. All he can think. The vigor of his run and the sheer thrill is intoxicating.
There have been times before when I have spent hours and hours in my wolf form, running as far as his powerful body could take me. I plan to let him run now, too, for as long as he needs.
But I haven’t yet reached the trees when he makes a sudden turn, streaking back toward Idalis’s cottage.
I try to urge him back into the open field, but he resists, snapping at me.
Run,I tell him in the voice of my thoughts.Run. Stretch. Hunt.
My mate.She’s my mate. My mate.
His whimper outside of the cottage is followed by a howl. A deep need for companionship. A need for her to know. My heart twists in my chest. Doubt creeps in. It was only a dream. I drag myself out of my wolf form and back into my human form, stumbling to a halt at the top of a low rise and heaving in breath after breath. My hand is on the door before my mind can catch up with what my wolf is sure of.
Idalis is still in bed, still asleep, and I cross the main room to the side of her bed feeling like I am dreaming—and like I am wide awake at the same time. The pounding in my chest is all I can hear. I take a few more deep breaths, which are filled with her scent.Thatscent. The scent that called to me, promising a mate. It’s a heady feeling.
Amate.
I did not take the dream for the truth. Why would I? I have known for most of my life that I would never have a fated mate. No wolf would ever be paired with me.