It really drives me to do better.
Maybe she’s another distraction.
Or more like a drug.
An addiction.
One that’s probably going to fight back and kill me.
But I keep going back.
Her anger fuels me.
Or maybe… It’s the sparkle in her eyes when she tells me to fuck off.
I don’t know.
It’s fun.
For me, anyway.
Chapter 18
STEPHANIE
Ido a final spin in the mirror, making sure my ass looks good. This dress is tight as hell, to the point I’m scared that once I eat, I won’t be able to breathe.
But it’s worth it for how good I feel. I’ve been strict this week on cutting out any snacks. Drinking so much water, I can’t stop peeing. It worked, though.
I pair the dress with a pair of gold strappy Jimmy Choos and my serpent necklace; I look good enough to eat.
I trail my hands along my chest, down the very low-cut neckline that dips between my breasts. You can see the tail of my tattoo sneaking up in the middle.
My snake. I call her Raven. Beautiful and deadly. Just like how I feel tonight.
The tattoo represents power. How something smaller than you can still kill you.
There’s a knock at the door. I swipe up my purse and down my champagne.
A smiling Poppy greets me.
“Wow, Steph. I mean, Dr. Miller.”
I laugh.
“Steph is fine, Poppy. You look beautiful,” I tell her.
The baby pink dress, filled with sequins, makes her look like a princess. It’s very her—cute and sweet.
“Thank you. Is it too much?”
I shake my head. I need to work on her self-confidence. Especially if she’s going to make it as a heart surgeon.
“No matter what you wear, it’s never too much.”
“I swear, I’m not normally this bad. It’s just… you’re so, so cool, Steph. I aspire to be like you.”
That makes my heart stutter.