Page 312 of The Lands Defying
It feels like the rogures were a bad dream to others now, and I guess it will go down in history texts of just another bad thing that happened, and it will be forgotten that someone sacrificed himself for the peace they now have.
My pack is still in Eridian. They didn’t want to move and I didn’t force them.
Josh has taken over most of the Alpha duties and Kade has been working on himself the best he can for the time being.
The Elites are now revered and respected more than feared after they continue to protect the people from other creatures, and they are doing great under the watchful eye of Leo.
They come and see me often, at least one of them at one time, but I’m not easy to chase down.
I make sure of it.
I can’t see them and not think of him.
I can’t see them and not be reminded of how they just stood there, even if they told me they were respecting his wishes and it was hard for them.
They should have helped me.
But they didn’t.
The leaves are falling now.
And so am I.
I raise my hand to the moon and watch it shine between my fingers. Wiggling each one, letting its glow peek through as I lay on my back, I think of all the things I left unsaid.
I lost track of how long it has been, lost track since the last time my heart beat.
Can he see me? Can he feel me?
Others think I'm getting better day by day, but they are wrong.
I'm just better at hiding it.
I don’t want to see their sad or worried looks, I don’t want to deal with the dreaded, ‘are you okay’ questions.
So I paste a smile on my face, talking as I would normally, I even laugh here and there.
Then as soon as they are out of sight, I sag against the closest surface, my smile dropping as sadness clouds my mind.
Runa rests inside of me after a run with the pack. I heard she even played with Kade for a while so I think she enjoyed it.
I didn’t even go, I chopped wood instead.
I let my hand drop to the side. It’s late. Everyone is sleeping back at Eridian but I couldn’t sleep.
So I came here, again.
I roll over, my hands running through the darkness, trying to feel close to him. My eyes blink heavily and I curl up on my side, hiding within the lesia flowers at my back, hoping I see him in my dreams.
But my dreams are few and far between, all that’s left is nightmares of a sinking body and darkness.
Eighty Five
Rhea
Something washes over me.
A niggling feeling that wakes me.
