Page 310 of The Lands Defying
Fresh grass is peaking through the snow and I can’t bear to look at it.
At the reminder of his eyes that were always watching me.
I nod at my pack as they check on me, moving away from their touch like it burns.
It sort of does.
It’s not the touch I want.
Runa whines within again.
Even she doesn’t want to come out.
I port again, and as soon as I land, I take the same path I always do.
I see Leo here with Edward, and I know they will probably want to update me on things, but I bypass them.
I don’t care.
Everyone is living their lives, but I'm at a standstill.
I know Edward is rebuilding a council, a member from each pack territory will be on it, and Leo was discussing how the Elites will still continue on with their protection of the lands, after abolishing all previous laws.
One being that you are now allowed to have no pack, and you don’t have to declare your whereabouts.
There are great changes happening, and though Edward doesn’t want to see himself as the leader of this council, he is, and he is already making the lands a great place.
He is fair and strong. He wants what’s best for Vrohkaria and I admire him for that.
I just…don’t want anything to do with it.
How could I when the one thing that was mine has been taken from me?
I don’t feel like I won anything.
I don’t feel like my nightmare has ended.
Because I losthim.
I place my hand on the lilk tree, closing my eyes and feeling the undercurrent of Darius's power within here.
It is the only place I can feel him, and today, I spend a little extra time here before I port out once again.
When I walk and get to my spot, I look down at the dark patch and crouch.
Undoing the pouch from my side, I open it and rifle through the seeds.
“We will play in the lesia flowers, Darius, just like you said.”
The summer heat bathes me as I walk through the new field of lesia flowers.
They circle out from the dark patch, making sure to fill as much space as possible.
It took many days and nights to do it, but I did.
I walk barefoot through them, Runa at my back. I look down at my bare feet, wondering if he is following them below like he said he would.
But I still can’t feel him.
