Page 47 of Euphoria
Oran glares at him and tries not to laugh. “I hate you so much.”
I flag the bartender down as they go back and forth about who’d be a bottom or a top. “Your wives must suffer with this small dick syndrome y'all suffer from.”
Both Oran and Jagger laugh. “You are the one with the small dick, bitch.” Oran flips me the finger, “let’s go Jagger, we’re not needed here.”
Jagger laughs. “See, the man can’t even move without me. See…”
I roll my eyes, grab the drinks and head back to the table with them.
* * *
While everyone is gettingseating in for the wedding, I spot my parents. My mother or the woman who didn’t birth me looks me up and down with disgust like I stole her husband from her. I roll my eyes and don’t even bother making eye contact with the guy who couldn’t nut in a fucking condom before he had me. I walk out of the wedding hall and make my way to where Bambi is getting ready. I walk in after knocking and Bambi is pacing back and forth.
“Bams…” I call her name out.
“Bowie…” she’s nervous, but she looks so beautiful. I’m tempted in marching out to stand right next to Phoenix so I could see her walking down the aisle to me but I just know I can’t do that.
“You look so beautiful, darling. Fucking gorgeous,” I say with a smile. Bambi stops pacing and stands right in front of me, her eyes so wide and innocent looking. She gazes at me like the younger version of her used to. Gazing at me as if I were the answer to all her prayers. She takes a deep breath and I take in how much the makeup enhances her beauty. She’s beautiful without it, but with it, she’s a damned goddess. “God, I love you. No one has ever looked so good in white.”
Bambi smiles, “I love you,” she wraps her arms around my neck as she stands on the tips of her toes even in her heels. “I wish I was walking up to marry the both of you today, but I understand.”
I lean in and kiss her lips, not caring if her lipstick gets smudged. I groan as I wrap my arms around her. I finally let her go and she exhales. “I love it when you have your eyes shut still after I kiss you as if you’re locking in the kiss for later,” I whisper.
Bambi smiles with her eyes still shut. “That’s because I do store it for later. You kiss me and my mood shifts. When you kiss me, Bow, it’s like my world is finally alright. Like everything that could go wrong won’t go wrong because you’re here.”
“I want to do something,” I say to her when I pull her away from my body. The door opens and shuts, Phoenix comes in. He has a smile on his face. I nod at him. “I know that you wanted to marry us both up there, but you respect my wishes. I just, I really love you for that Bambi and that’s why I’m going to marry you here, with just us because you deserve to feel like a bride. You deserve to be shown that you are loved. You mean the world to me,” I confess. I clear my throat, not trying to get emotional.
Bambi doesn’t have the same luxury as I can tell she’s already getting emotional. “But we need someone in here to officiate us.”
Phoenix opens the door and in walks Orion, or like others call him, Mikonos. He smiles at me and at Bambi, “Kinky. I like it here.” He shuts the door.
Bambi looks at him, “What are you doing in here, Orion?”
“I’m your officiator. Let’s make this shit even more official.” He winks at her.
Phoenix moves and stands behind Bambi and he pulls the veil over her all white-pant suit ensemble. She giggles as he passes her the bouquet, then he steps back, sitting down as if he’s our witness. “Now, I’m sure you guys want to say your own vows,” Mikonos says.
“Yes,” both of us say.
Bambi takes my hands in hers, “I want to go first,” she takes a deep breath in and releases another one out. “Bowie, my Bowie Richard Hanlon. The boy who came into my life and changed everything,“ she looks at Phoenix, “thank you,” she clears her throat and tries not to tear up, but she fails. “Thank you for introducing me to the man that would forever change my life.” She looks at me again, “Thank you for being best friends and not making me choose between you two. Thank you for your unconditional love. For always being there for me. Yes, we didn’t see each other for 14 years but baby, that changes nothing. I had you and Phoenix with me in my mind and my soul, especially my heart. You changed my life and I couldn't see it any other way. I was a sad, lonely girl, one who had no one and felt like the world thought of her as some throwaway, but not you, not the man who understood me. You saw me for me. I love you for today, for tomorrow, for the past and God, I am going to love you so hard for the rest of my life, Bowie Richard Hanlon. I’ll wear your wedding ring with honor and your last name with pride because I am proud to be yours.”
I take a deep breath, trying not to cry myself. I’m not an over emotional dude but fuck, the memories and the pain of not feeling loved come back but not in a bad way instead it comes back to remind me something, to show me. To show me just how blessed I am. “Fuck it,” I say and I take the veil off because I want to touch her. I cup her face in my hands and wipe her tears. “Bambi, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know that I’ve never once said I’ve prayed, but baby, I’ve prayed for you even before I knew you. The first time, you looked at me I knew, but I was too chickenshit to admit it. Imagine an 18-year-old boy knowing who he was going to be with for the rest of his life? Fuck, it was scary. I had a terrible sense of family, love, and even marriage. Shit, I can’t even get myself up there to the altar because I feel like it’d be a lie but not this. Not like this, this isn’t a lie, this is the truth. This is us. In everything, when the world goes wrong, we are right. We, us three, we make sense and we will always make sense. My heart, my eyes, my body and my soul chose you. It chose right and I would be a liar if I said that these 14 years didn’t kill me when I lived without you. You’re my moral compass and I’ll always use you to lead me back home. I’m crazy about you, my little lamb. Thank you for accepting to wear my name with pride and showing my ring off with sincerity. I can’t promise you that I’ll always be on my best foot, but I swear to God, I will never make you worry. I won’t leave, I won’t stray, and I won’t embarrass you. If you’ll have me, I want to make you the happiest woman alive. Please say yes?”
Bambi nods and the words don’t come out because she’s tearing up. “Yes.” She finally gets out.
I kiss her hard, not caring about anything else. “I now pronounce you husband and wife. Stop tongue fucking your wife in my face,” Mikonos says.
Both Bambi and I laugh in between the kissing. We pull away and I sigh, “I fucked up your makeup,” I say.
Phoenix snickers in the background. “Fuck it up some more. The ceremony starts in 30 minutes. I’ll be back to watch in 10 minutes, but Ry won’t. He’ll see Bambi in the wedding hall.”
Bambi snickers. Mikonos shakes his head and looks at Bambi, “When you’re done being with these two jealous fucks. Find me, I’m not jealous at all.” He winks.
I roll my eyes and giggle. “You’re married, Ry.”
He gives me a devilish smirk. “Am I, Bams, am I?” he doesn’t give me a chance to say anything as he chuckles walking out of the room.
Phoenix stands there to watch us two for a second. “I can’t wait until you become Mrs. Moralis-Hanlon in front of the world.” he grins. “I’ll be back in 10 minutes.” He comes closer and turns Bambi’s head, kissing her hard. He pulls away, “Fuck, I’m horny.”
I smile. “So am I.” I look at Bambi, I’m ready to devour my wife.
