Page 16 of Euphoria
Chapter 6
Bowie
I watchas Phoenix lets Bambi down letting go of her neck but he grabs the handcuffs dragging her with him. I’ve missed this. I watch as she struggles against the cuffs. I’d love to use the cuffs in other ways but we can wait for all of that. I don’t want this moment to pass by. I learned early on that I enjoyed watching my woman being fucked and dominated by another male. A lot of my male friends thought I was gay and that I wanted both but there’s nothing that excites me about seeing another penis. It’s more about the way my woman responds to being taken. The way she grows wetter, nearly dripping all over herself. The indent of her nails everywhere on the other person’s body. The way she moans, groans and mewls like nothing else can be as perfect as this moment. I love watching my woman understand and accept what she likes. It didn’t work for me with other friends but when Phoenix and I had that conversation it surprised me to find out he enjoyed watching too in the same way that I did. Except for him it was about the love that was transpiring. The emotions and the flow of everything from the feeling of being taken roughly to the softness of everything. The afterglow of sex. The cuddling, the sweet nothings being whispered. He loved watching his woman get shown what the fuck a smooth motherfucker like me can do. We complement each other. We both bring our own intensity and there’s nothing about us that makes us weak enough to question our sexuality.
I won’t cower if I see Phoenix’s dick neither will I get hard and vice versa. It’s a human organ used to bring pleasure to the womanly body. The softness, the curves, oooh fuck everything about it was a turn on. I clear my throat, trying not to zone out. I pay attention to Bambi again but fuck every movement she makes makes me want to take her up against a wall. Dry humping is for the birds.
“Let go, Nix. You’re hurting me,” Bambi cries out and it shoots to my dick.
“Good, that shit makes my dick hard. Shut the fuck up unless you want to meet the hunter, little deer,” Phoenix responds to her.
Bambi lets out a soft yelp as we all get into the elevator. “So you’re not going to do anything about what he’s saying to me, Bowie?” Bambi asks me as if she’s really surprised that I’m not helping.
I scoff as I press the main floor. I know that I should go in with Phoenix and her but I can admit I'm not ready. Even if some say that Phoenix is impulsive they don’t understand I’m worse than him because I have a conscience. Mine is intact and is fully aware of the dumb decisions I make. If Bambi fucks with my heart one more time, I’ll forget that I love her. I don’t want it to ever go that far. Fuck, I love her too fucking hard for this shit. “You don’t need me, remember?” I sneer.
“That’s not what I meant and you know it,” she whispers.
I look at her and grin. “It’s not, maybe I need you to teach me again how the fuck do I take your words? Am I to drop to my knees and collect them like before when you were elevated above a fucking queen or should I just let them drop to my feet because I’m the evil king who wouldn’t bat an eyelash at the execution of your pussy?” I say.
Phoenix whistles. “That was some nice ass lyrics right there. I say add them to a new song called Evil King or some shit.”
I look up at Phoenix, shocked and honored. “You listen to my music, dude?”
Phoenix shrugs. “I’m your biggest fan, you bitch. You’re still my damned best friend.”
I try to catch and subdue all the emotions on my face but I can’t. The 18-year-old boy that still loves this dude like my brother is well and alive. I feel like he’s never given up on me. “You still think of me as that? You still want me to have that title, dude?”
Phoenix smirks. “If you’re asking if I’d die for you, in a fucking heartbeat.”
“Shit, I’d still die for you too, man. Without even a fucking thought about it. You’re still my best friend too.” I smile hard, not able to hold back on how happy I am to rectify this friendship of ours. 12 years means nothing to me as long as Phoenix still accepts me as his family.
“Yet these two fucking idiots can’t comprehend that I’d die for them too,” Bambi says and I know she does not understand that she said it out loud.
I can’t help it as I laugh, letting everything go for this moment. Phoenix joins me and when we both quiet down, we look at Bambi. “I didn’t think she had it in her, did you, Nix?” I ask Phoenix even though I can’t take my eyes off the only girl that will ever have my damaged heart.
“No, I didn’t but hey at least now, we know that she would curse us out in her sleep.” The elevator dings and Phoenix walks, pulling her out with him.
Bambi looks back at me before the elevator door shuts, “You’re really not coming, Bow?” she asks. The look of pure sadness is clear on her face. I know she thinks I’m leaving and I don’t want to lie but I will because I need space. I need to think. Kissing her makes me forget what the fuck happened and it’s like when I stop then my brain functions again. I sigh. Fuck.
I break eye contact with her, pressing for the elevator door to shut. “I need to go out of town. Don’t miss me too much, little lamb.” I wink at her as the doors shut. She will not cry but she looks so close to it I want to go back upstairs to comfort her.
No, not yet. I need to think. I need to make sure that this is it for me. That she’s all I plan on being lost in again. That my words of captivating her for life aren’t all bullshit and lust.
