Page 27 of Blinded By The Sun
Boston rolls his eyes. “You went to one specialist years ago and never got a second opinion. How the hell do you know you can’t have them? They say, always get a second opinion. You’re so bullheaded.”
“Fuck you. Plus, the proof is Tatyana didn’t end up pregnant, so there’s that. So yeah, sterile.”
Boston rolls his eyes again, and I want to smack him. Matteo gets his attitude from him. “What if it was her, dickhead? Have you ever had her checked out?”
I stand up, putting an end to this conversation. “I’ll have Dottie come in today and pack my shit. You’re pissing me off and I don’t feel like fighting you over this stupid ass subject. Be ready to leave later on tonight.”
“Yeah whatever. Keep running away from this subject like I won’t pester you about it later.”
I turn back, facing him. “What the fuck, Boston? Why do you keep bringing this shit up? Let it go, motherfucker! Let it the fuck go! I have!”
Boston tilts his head and stands, squaring up his shoulders like he’s about to fight. “Why would I let it go, huh? You bullheaded motherfucker! I know how much it fucking gutted you the first time you got those results. I saw the look in your eyes, asshole, every part of you shut down and you changed. The one that used to plan where his kids would go on vacation, whether you wanted them to know this life fully, all that shit, you stopped. You just gave up. ONCE! So yeah, I’m frustrated that my own fucking cousin who is basically my brother would just give all that up from one doctor. Come on, man!”
“It’s easy, asshole. Give it up like I did. Stop riding my ass about it!” I grit.
Adriano picks this moment to intervene. “Whoa! Guys! Chill. Bos, let it go all right?”
“But Adri?” Boston says.
Adriano shakes his head, then turns to look my way. “Go cool down and figure everything out so we can go. Get your head right. Hotheaded as fuck.” I glare at him and open my mouth to say something. “Dude…” Adriano pleads with me. I bite down on my teeth and walk away.
I hate that Boston brought up something I keep buried deep in my heart. I never want to talk about not being able to have kids. I gave up on it the moment I got those results and I will never hope that I get another chance to have my heart crushed because of that shit. No. I’m done with that subject. Never again.
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