Page 52 of Blinded By The Sun
Ciro turns his head and kisses my stomach then he looks up at me laying his chin on my stomach. “I would have never touched you without your permission, you know that right? If for one second you didn’t want me to touch or even look at you, I would’ve turned away, you know that right?” Ciro repeats.
I bury both sets of fingers through his hair as I smile at him. “Yeah. I know. You didn’t even want to touch me at first. I could tell by the look in your eyes. You looked sad, yet so starved. Like a wolf ready for the hunt. One that’s been caged up for months and was ready to pounce at the first chance he got.”
“Yeah?” He teases. “You think I’m a wolf?”
I shake my head. “No, I think of you as a panther. A black panther at that. When they’re in stealth mode, no one could detect what they’re about to do. When they get close enough to you, it’s too late, they devour you whole and there’s nothing of yours left. No evidence, no nothing, just oblivion…” I confess.
“And do you hate that? That there’s no evidence left of you since I’ve pounced and devoured you whole?” Ciro inquires.
I shake my head once more. “No, I think this is the best thing that you’ve done for me. I prayed every day to be devoured over and over until I no longer existed, but what you did is beyond that. You took something filthy and tainted, giving it a fresh chance. Letting me fly and spread my wings how I want to. You didn’t make me into a doll, yes, I was and will always be your toy, your favorite toy, but this is different. You don’t make me do what I don’t want to do. You tell me to do what I want to do. You encourage me to conquer as if I am my own Caesar.”
“Fuck, you know I love it when you talk dirty to me baby but not in front of our child.” He teases.
“He’s ours?” I ask.
Ciro shrugs. “Yeah, we can share him since I know he’ll betray me if I make him choose. I’ve shared Cira with you so I can share her gift with you. And thank you for sharing your Macy with me, baby. I’m happy to get to know more about you. Tell me this, outside of how you grew up, where is one place you’ve always wanted to go?”
“Hmm…” I shut my eyes thinking and when the answer pops up, I smile wide. “I’ve always wanted to go to Disney. I’ve never been and when I heard some of those men talking about their kids wanting to go, I wanted to also get a chance to be taken there. To have someone care enough to take me there.”
“Which one? There is over one location.”
I shrug. “I don’t care, really. Just wanted to get that experience.”
“Open your eyes,” Ciro demands, and when I do, he’s looking at me like a man who would give me the world. “We’ll go to all of them so that way you can pick your favorite one.”
“What? Really? Seriously?Franchement?”
Ciro smiles. “Yep!” He answers and he sits up, shaking my hands out of his hair. He comes up to my face and hovers over me. “Give me kisses,chouchou.”
He doesn’t even have to ask or tell me again as I grab hold of his shirt, pulling him down to me. Our lips crash into each other and I feel like I’m being elevated. Everything is turning upside down and I’m willing to go with it. I don’t care if I find myself at a crossroad or an empty road, all I know is that, as long as I get to have Ciro, look at him as he smiles at me and demands kisses, I’ll be happy. Because I am happy for the first time in my life.
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