Page 29 of Free-Falling
“Do you still love Eli?” Karessa asks.
“No, I don’t think so. Well, I don’t know I feel like for someone who I was in love with, there’s so much missing. Like where are the comforting moments? The simple let me take care of you because you’ve been working all day gestures? I don’t remember that. It never happened.”
Karessa sighs. “So, then why were you with him Ainslee?”
I look down. “Because it was good to feel needed and wanted for something.”
Karessa stretches, her hand patting mine. “Well, now that we’re friends, I promise to kick your ass if you do that again.”
I laugh. “Promise?”
“Course.” She answers back and we move on to lighter topics.
I left when Karessa left the bakery. I didn’t want to come back home, but it’s better I’m there before he comes back. I want to be awake to talk. The elevator dings and I walk in seeing Jagger sitting down on the couch facing the now lit fireplace. “Hey?” I walk over to him.
“Where’ve you been?” He asks. Something is off about him.
“The bakery. I’ve been trying to reach you. Are you okay? Can we talk now?”
Jagger stands and walks over to me, the look in his eyes tells me something is different but I stand my ground. “No, we can’t talk now, baby.” He says the term of endearment with zero emotion in it.
“Okay? Um, okay. I’ll sleep in the other room.”
“Be my guest but there’s no door there.”
“What? Why?” I ask.
“Because Ainslee. I realized I made a mistake when I didn’t break it down for you. Break down what this was. In simple terms, you’re my fucking wife. Mine to kiss, mine to fuck, mine to get mad, sad, and happy but the biggest thing is you’re mine to like and one day, love. We’re not getting divorced and even if we were, I’d make sure it’s impossible because you don’t deserve anyone else but me. You fucked up when you hesitated to answer me and now, I’ll be everywhere. In front of you, in your ears, in your pussy, your ass and in your subconscious. You’ll dream of me fucking your life up and you’ll weep tears of joy because this is what you want. So like I said, be my guest, sleep in the other room but come morning, be in my bed. No ifs, ands, or buts.” He turns away from me. He walks away and I’m gutted.
“I-,” I walk towards him but I stop. Jagger is… Intense as fuck.
He stops in his tracks and pivots on his heel, walking towards me until he’s all up in my space. I tilt my neck back to look up at him. “One more thing, if I ever catch Eli sniffing around you, I will put him six feet under and then some. Goodnight, pretty baby.” Jagger leans down, grabs me by the back of my head and kisses me like the world is ending. Holy shit, I’m melting faster than vanilla ice cream on a hot summer day.
Chapter 9
Jagger
In the middle of the night, my bedroom door opens and I hear Ainslee as she walks over to my bed. She pulls back the covers and climbs into bed. She places her arms around my waist. She lays her cheek on my back and for the first time all day, I’ve relaxed.
“I’m sorry, Jagger, okay? I didn’t mean to hesitate or not tell you stuff. Please don’t be mad at me. Please don’t shut me out.” She sniffles. “When you left, I thought, I thought that was it. I feel like I disappointed you, and that’s not something I want. I don’t want you to ever be like that with me.”
I turn around to face her. “Ains… don’t cry. It turns me on when you do.” I say with a groan.
This causes her to stop and stare at me. “What?”
I wipe her tears away as she wraps one leg around my waist pulling us closer making my naked body realize she’s naked. My eyes shut as I grind into her. I rock into her for a moment, not slipping in yet, enjoying her getting wetter. “Ainslee Margot Hanlon, I need you to understand something. You’re not just some girl or a warm body. I like you a lot and I don’t know when it started. All I know is that I can’t imagine being married to someone else and I won’t be.”
Ainslee releases a moan, and I open my eyes. My resolve is breaking,damnit! I grip her waist, stopping her from trying to get me inside her. I continue speaking my mind. “I need you to be sure you want this as much as I do because baby I’m intense as fuck. I’ll show up during your filming and fuck you just because I can. I’ll fuck you in every which way but what I won’t do is fuck with your heart, pretty baby. I won’t.” My voice is hoarse now.
“I didn’t hesitate,” Ainslee says. She leans in like she’s about to kiss me but then shakes her head, moving her head back a little. “Nobody has ever asked me what I want or what I think. I’ve just always been told, so when you asked me… I froze. If you were to ask me again, I’d choose you, Jag. I would.”
I narrow my eyes. “I won’t ask you because I knew you chose me the second the elevator doors closed, and you were blowing up my phone like a crazy person.”
“Jagger…” She calls my name like that’s all that matters on this planet.
“Yes, pretty baby?” I answer.
“Shu-.” I cut her off as I shove myself balls deep inside of her. Ainslee throws her head back and I lift her leg up supporting it with my elbow turning her on her back.
