What if he found me? Dragged me off? Killed me?
 
 I looked for Mom, too, but she wasn’t there. I hoped she ran far away. When the bad men took Daddy, Mom was dragged off. And?—
 
 I know she escaped. I know it.
 
 So many parts are missing from my memory, though.
 
 We went to start a new life in Ireland, but then the men came. Then the monster.
 
 He shot Daddy.
 
 I saw him. Saw Daddy. The hole in his head. I could see through the smoke and the coat the monster threw on me.
 
 When I shot him, I hoped for something terrible. Unforgivable.
 
 Back then I thought it was unforgivable. Now I know better.
 
 I’d hoped he was dead.
 
 I didn’t even know my finger was near the trigger.
 
 But I know he didn’t die because monsters never do.
 
 They hide.
 
 And then, in the dead of night, they come back.
 
 I open my eyes and stare at the big corkkboard covering my wall. Everything about the criminal Quinn clan. Things about a mysterious killer. A strange man. Pictures of men who look like him.
 
 I don’t remember much.
 
 Just that he was a giant. And he had curling black hair.
 
 Blue eyes like midnight and a lilt to his dark voice.
 
 And he told me he’d take care of me. That means kill, even I knew that at ten years old.
 
 But now I’m grown up.
 
 At twenty-two, I’m older than my years. I’ve lived a life. I’ve trained. I know guns. I know how to fight hard and dirty.
 
 One day, I’ll find this Quinn.
 
 And when I do, I’ll kill him.
 
 THREE
 
 torin
 
 “Where the fuck are you going?”
 
 My youngest brother, Declan walks over to me, Clawzilla, our black cat, perched on his shoulder. I remember when he was just a hissing scrap of fur. Now he’s big and his body is defying gravity right now because he’s bigger than Dec’s shoulder.
 
 I wouldn’t cross Clawzilla, but he likes naps more than maimings.
 
 “Out.” Because I can’t tell him the truth about where I’m headed.
 
 Arnold, our German shepherd, trots up. He’s a big, gorgeous dog now, his intelligent eyes looking up at me. He makes a small, questioning whine.