Page 73 of Break My Heart
We look at each other, not saying anything, but I can feel the tension rising, the heat between us, the intense attraction.
‘Well, now that that’s settled,’ I say, ‘I guess I’ll be going.’
‘Not a chance.’ He grabs me and kisses me, then reaches behind me and slams the door shut.
We tear at each other’s clothes until they’re finally off, then he lifts me up against the door and thrusts inside me. The sex is fast and rough and just what we needed to move on from what happened earlier.
‘Stay with me tonight,’ Sawyer says as we’re getting dressed.
‘I need to go back. Aria’s the only one working tonight. Lexi has the night off.’
‘Then go there and come back.’ He kisses me as he puts on his belt. ‘I want to sleep next to you.’
‘Just sleep?’
‘We should at least try it. I don’t want our whole relationship to be about sex.’
‘Okay. I’ll come back, but it may not be until after two.’
‘Text me and let me know when you’re here. I’ll meet you at your truck. You shouldn’t be walking alone that time of night.’
‘It’s a small town. I’ll be fine.’
‘Would you just do it? It’s a guy thing. We have a need to protect our women.’
‘Fine.’ I kiss him. ‘I’ll text you.’
He walks me out to my truck, giving me another kiss before I leave.
What is happening? How did I end up dating Sawyer? Why am I so drawn to him? It’s like camp all over again, but this time instead of an innocent little crush, I have full-on feelings for him.
Why couldn’t I fall for some other guy? A guy who didn’t own a brewery in Haydon Falls?
Later that night, I fall asleep next to Sawyer, tucked in his arms, feeling safe and at peace. It’s a feeling I should’ve felt with Ryder but never did. Was it because I didn’t really love him? I thought I did, but now I’m questioning it. What I’m feeling now feels more like love, but it can’t be. I can’t love Sawyer. I’m just getting to know him.
* * *
The alarm goes off at six. I wake up with half my body draped over Sawyer. It feels good to sleep next to a man again, and even better when it’s Sawyer. I love feeling his strong arms wrapped around me.
‘Want some breakfast?’ he asks, kissing the top of my head.
‘What have you got?’
‘Eggs. Bacon. My mom’s pastries.’
‘Yes! To all of it.’
He laughs. ‘Just give me a minute.’ He starts to get up.
‘Wait.’ I lift up enough to kiss him. ‘Don’t you want to do something else first?’
‘I do, but I’m trying not to.’ He runs his hand up and down my arm. ‘I wasn’t kidding when I said I don’t want this to just besex. I’ve been doing that for years and it hasn’t worked out for me. I want this to be a real relationship. I’ve only had that with one other person and I want it again, with you.’
‘I’d like that.’ I look up at him. ‘But we can still have sex, right?’
‘Well, yeah, just not every second we’re together.’ He gets out of bed and goes to the kitchen.
I lay back in his bed, staring up at the ceiling, loving how it feels to be with someone who sparks so much passion and excitement in me, something I never felt with Ryder.
