Page 64 of Searching for Sadie
Her mom nodded. "You're right."
Sadie's head snapped back, she was not expecting that. "I'm sorry, what did you just say?"
Her mom smiled and laughed a little. "I said you're right. I know I haven't always made the right decision with you girls. It's just hard when you have two daughters who are so different. I tried to treat you each the same, but I don't think I took into account the fact that you both had different needs."
"I don't hold it against you. You and dad were good parents, but I just can't pretend like this didn't happen. I supported her dream for years and then when hers didn't pan out she took mine."
Her mom opened her mouth like she was going to disagree, but then just nodded and said you're right. Her sister had been on a traveling dance team when they were growing up. Her dad was always busy with work, so she and her mom and sistertraveled most weekends to her dance competitions. And let's just say being an overweight ten-year-old at dance competitions all the time was her own brand of hell.
"Sometimes I don't think I should have made you travel with her as much as I did."
Sadie chuckled. "I hated it" Her mom deflated. "But it wasn’t all bad. I think part of the reason I love music so much is all the time we spend in the car. I remember driving and she would be sleeping but we would be up front singing Reba."
Her mom smiled, but her eyes were filled with tears. "Those are some of my favorite memories."
"Mine too."
"I'm sorry, Sadie. I know I should have done things differently. And just so you know, I told your sister she should have supported you."
Sadie nodded.
"Will you come back to Nashville?"
"I don’t know…"
When she first moved to Mystic Falls, she wasn't sure how long she would stay here, she was just looking for a safe place to land and lick her wounds. But the more time she spends here the more it's starting to feel like home. She had friends. She was about to jam with Liam James. And she had Lucas, and while things were still new with him, they were incredible.
"Does this have anything to do with the man the saw in your kitchen yesterday?"
Sadie tried to bite back the smile that was about to spread across her face.
"I thought so," her mother said with a raised eyebrow.
"He's part of it, but I really like it here. But I'm wondering if I could maybe do music here."
"Here?" her mother asked in surprise.
"I know it's weird, but do you know who lives here?"
Her mother shook her head.
"Liam James!"
"Like Liam James, Liam James? The pop star?"
"That's the one."
"Wow. I had no idea. So, you're going to devise a plan to try and get him some of your songs?"
"No. I'm friends with his girlfriend. I was at his house last night. We are going to get together to jam sometime."
"Holy shit!"
And a genuine belly laugh bubbled up out of Sadie for what felt like the first time in a long time. "First you say fuck then you say shit. Language mom!"
Her mom took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Sadie. I should have handled things differently, but I'm so glad you seem to be landing on your feet here."
"Thank you."
