“But …”
I pulled on my pants and shirt. Undergarments didn’t seem like a big deal in that moment.
“Yes,” I told him, staring him down as he said it. “You made me abandon my son to come be your little plaything.”
He glanced at the couch, where seconds earlier we’d been about to fuck. I recognized the mild hypocrisy in my voice, acting like I hadn’t been a willing party. It didn’t matter. Not then. Not with everything piling back down on me.
“I’m sorry.” He shook his head, tugging uncomfortably on his chin as everything came crashing down. “I didn’t know. You didn’ttell me.”
“When would I have had the chance to? I never saw you after you went to tell the president what you wanted done with me. You neveraskedme, Levi. Although I thought I made things fairly clear when you humiliated me in front of my team in the White House.”
He waved that off. “I thought you were just playing the part in public!”
I stared at him. “Are you serious? Since when have I done that with you? When have I ever pretended? I know it’s been a long time, but don’t give me that bullshit. You were caught up in your little power trip, thought you could have me all for yourself, and didn’t care about the consequences.”
The wide-eyed look told me all I needed to know.
“I should have figured.”
Stepping forward, I plucked the photo I’d snuck in with me—we were supposed to bring only the clothes on our back—and walked to the guest room I’d seen during my tour. At the time, Levi had made it clear I would be sleeping in his room, but I didn’t plan on giving him a choice about it now.
“Wait.”
I hesitated, caught by the tone of his voice. The hardness of someone with something important to say. I glanced back, giving him time to speak.
“I didn’t know,” he said. “And I’m sorry. If I had known you had a child, I … I would’ve done things differently, Sarah. Please. That was not my intention. Please, you have to believe me.”
Blowing air out of my nose, I almost smiled. “Oh, I believe you, Levi. Don’t worry.”
You’re far too self-absorbed for me to think there was an ounce of maliciousness behind it.
“Good,” he said.
I turned to go.
“I’m going to make it right.”
Every muscle in my body locked up as he said those words to my back. Words I’d wanted to hear. Hoped to hear.
“You are?” I asked, scarcely allowing myself to believe it.
“Yes.” He nodded. “I promise, Sarah. I will fix this. I will. I just wish you’d told me sooner.”
My heart nearly exploded.
“Oh, Levi, thank you!” I dropped my clothes and ran over to him, leaping to give him a giant bearhug. “Thank you, thank you, thank you. I’m so glad you understand where I’m coming from.”
I kissed his cheek. And again. Then his lips, overjoyed at the prospect of seeing Jake again.
“It’s going to take a couple of days to get permissions arranged,” he said. “Okay?”
“That’s fine.”
I’d been away from Jake for that long before. Sometimes I was assigned to other details that required me to accompany certain figures on longer trips where they needed beefier security. A week away would never be something he’d remember down the line.
And I would get to go home and see him again.
“Thank you,” I said, pulling his face around and kissing him on the lips. “I didn’t think you had it in you.”